Mood: New Beginning....?
Friday, 4 September 2009
i'm stressed. haaa. i don;t know if i really am.. erms.. or am i just worrying too much??
LOVE....
He's an Asshole as usual..with a capital "A" damn pissed off.. sometimes feel like i've made the wrong choice...wrong priorities.. wrong judgement..
FAMILY...
I know you pple don't like him, but ever spare a thought for me? i'm stuck in between. both also nvr spare a thought for me. what you want me to do? split half?
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THOUGHT::
i choose to act blur and feign ignorance.. i keep to myself. i cant tell him off, neither can i tell them off.. this feeling's eating me up.. when i think of it i lose slp. i cnt eat right. my shoulders get stiff.. feel like just forgoing everything.. and i mean EVERYTHING.
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FRIENDS..
I know there's disapproval and "you deserve better" kinda comments.. but they are the most supportive among all.. All try to be there for me instead of against my wishes and keep saying bad stuff abt him.. support when at work.. gatherings.. dinner.. fun.. Marianne's wedding... No matter what i love you guys.. always there for me.. *huggies*
WORK....
Everything is slowing down.. my workload also not as fast paced as before.. but rush hour still there... don't know if its a gd sign or bad sign..
MONEY...
When will cash start flowing in SMOOTHLY? the key word here is SMOOTHLY.... haix.. i dunno..
yesterday i just read a story so meaningful abt choices in life... i feel like i've made all the wrong ones..... sobx....