Feeling so angry whole morning.. So angry with my creature manager aka Gugu(Aunt).. pissed off... eveything must point finger at other pple de.. so sianx.. I got screamed at, Eric got screamed at.. the best part is she say my transporter claim that the cargo is bare unit of glas.. which actually isn't lo.. she kick up a whole big fuss abt how can we take bare units and all to clear. how can pass to ah teo.. BUT!!! the BL reflects 2 wooden cases lo.. so angry.. after lunch i called HK Awards, co loader. she told me it is not bare unit. it is cased!!! WTF!!! and im thinking, she nvr get the black n white info, how can she anyhow scold pple...?? make me cry in the morning sia.. too stressed.... hais... bcz she my aunt, i respect her.. nvr shout or quarrel with her.. dammit... feel so indignified.....

Lynn is on urgent leave today.. in the morning alot of calls.. SIA cargo got damaged... out of 300 ctns, 20 ctns torn.. she also ake noise.. machiam my fault... haix.... SIAN AR~!!!!

Really lousy day at work..... hmm..... dun wanna be alone tonight.. feeling so lousy mood... wanted to meet that mr ang.. called him ard 3plus coming 4pm.. ask if he wanna meet. he say see how. call me back.. den abt 430 call him again.. guess what he doing?? Boss... then he ask me meet 6plus can? wait for him.. i already having damn damn lousy day at work.. wanna leave 530pm on the dot. den he still suggest ask me OT... haix.. i super dulan lo.. den i told him forgt it la.. later 520pm call again.. say meet him at 7pm.. vivo.... i did not bring my hp out.. and i duno wth i'm gonna do from now till then.. tell him i dun wanna stay at work.. den he lose temper say aiya dun meet la.. KNS. Fuck. Hate asiasoft...

He and his stupid game.. so Fucking impt! feel lagi shit.. lousy mood.. no one to cheer me up..
feel like crying... even blogging isnt enuff to vent out all my frustration....

i duno what he wants in life.. i'm not asking him to spend money when with me.. i'm not asking him for alot.. at least i feel... all i need is someone to be physically and mentally ard.. when i sit with him in the same room i dun feel his presence... i dun feel like i even exist.. transparent. all in his eyes is his game, boss, duku, and shop for equipment.. every week i'm at his place.. the main reason why i choose to go there after work so that he doesnt have to travel to tampines oh so often, save petrol. save time, takes abt 45mins to travel to tamp and back. scared he's tired.. scared troublesome.. stay at his place also means i get to spend quality time with him.. see him, feel him, at the same time i wish he's see me, feel me too... i duno if he sees me.. or just when he chooses to?

time to time he's so sweet and loving.. then later suddenly all gone.. i duno.. im confused...

boils down to that qns.. do i wanna live like that for the rest of my life?

I'm tired.. i wanna dissappear. Can?