x-treme.[LING].

MOOD: Found out

2009-10-20T14:39:00.002+08:00

actually last night i went to slp super early.
cos angry with that fella.

woke up but soemthing i thought was a knock on the door..
like as if late for work liao..
den i startled awake.

my hands headed straight for his phone.
to check out what time is it.
open only, is a msg from Bingwen Pri
it says "ok"

i was thinking what ok? so i headed out to see other msgs...
one from Lay Shan Pri says" Hi ZHNPers (or smthg liddat). tmr 7pm Paragon Ding Tai Fung"
he forwarded to Bingwen n Yong Sheng..
so iguess it's his Pri sch meet up again.

dunno if he's going. but he did say anithing.
couldn't slp.. head thinking stuff... but nvm.. fell aslp anyways..
it was 2am.

i asked him this morning if he was going to do OT tonight?
he replied. dunno. Mayb.

still no news abt the 7pm paragon thing.
hmm.. even if not sure goign anot also can mention ma. -.-

frgt it. he can do wadsoever he wants.
i'm jus gonna go home tonight.

again! Alone on my Bdae Eve.
How nice is that?

Hate my life..

Mood: Myself.

2009-10-20T13:57:00.002+08:00

i don't need anyone else. i have my family.
i guess thats the most impt.

i dun need him either..

feeling really out of place recently.. feel like i dun belong..

last night i wanted to cook the Ham for him to eat. cos he said no meat.
den in the end get scolded as "dunno how to think". apparently mum just mopped the floor.

haix. pissed. den ltr he also pissed that i dun wan eat the corn.
like i dunno how to appreciate other pple cook for me.

i was just pissed. plus it was really hot.
haix. forget it. den he lose temper, stand up reli loudly and washed his plate.
went outside to sit.

again left me alone there..
i'm forever alone.
what's the point of having a bf? when im always alone?

alone when outside celebrating my bdae on Friday night?
alone when i wanna go back no hse to go back?
alone when i went to his place on Sat?
alone when i watch soccer, he ask me can keep my comments to myself anot?
alone when i slp at night?

i'm always alone. so sianx..

from today onward. it'll all be abt Me, Myself and I..
cos only i'll forever be with me...

we can nvr leave each other de. hahaha..

Im BooooooooReD!!

2009-10-14T15:41:00.000+08:00

Omg.. boring.. haix.. falling aslp at work..

shipments slow.. den very little things to do.. slacking at work..

waiting for time to crawl to 5.30pm.. den head home...

MooD: Grey Area..

2009-10-10T12:04:00.000+08:00

Grey Area...

you know what's that?? its a small area right smack between right and wrong.. good and bad.. the unclear line which defines the total opposites...

Sitting in the grey area makes things.. easier.. because their unclear..
however pple tend to lean towards one side or another.. hoping it'll become clear to them soon..

Human nature they call it.
i wonder y..?

plagued by memories.. i'd like to call "Gin".
Gin won't leave me alone.
my ability to forget anything and everything, which i'd like to call "Loi", suddenly got lost somewhere in my bones or some tissue.. unablt to surface immediately when called upon...

looking for Loi to get rid of Gin.
Gin carries the grey area with her everywhere she goes..
Loi helps me "forget" Gin. So i can move on to the clearer part of life...

When Gin comes out, its scary.. because it means.. something.
i have yet to find out what something is.. but Gin sure knows what it is..

yea.. pple reading my blog might think i'm crazy.
but this is just Gin doing all these...
HAHA.. i'm sounding crazier by the second. Great.

Gin. Go Away!
Loi. Help!

**Falling in love with "Dark"... Because only when "Dark" is ard, you cant see anything.. whether it is visible by the naked eye or not.. you can't see shit. Probably 1 reason why i love "Dark" now..**

wondering if Dark could help Loi..hahaha..
ok stopping this crazy talk.

MooD: Updates..

2009-09-30T10:31:00.002+08:00

Hmm saturday aft wrk went to meet Hubby at.. erm.. Bukit Merah?
shit keep forgetting what's that place called. damn.

anyways the place where he service his bike de.. opp Queenstown shopping centre. yea.

so after that we headed back to my place suppose to meet Sean n Guang for movie... but later decided not to watch a movie.. instead go play snooker. haha..

so went went to safra tampines. got a table and started the game. Sean, Guang n hubby played first.. i watched.. FUN! whole lot of snooks and FUNNY ACTIONS AND FUNNY BALLS.. ALOT OF MISSES AND ALOT OF LAUGHTER..

haaa... super fun.. shoudl have this kinda outing more often.. hehe... anyways...
after that we headed to Tamp Mall for dinner.. Yin joined us at TM.
had teppanyaki.. yums..
loves.

bought mooncakes for ah ma.. mama.. and mum..
spent alot. =(
hubby paid for mum's one.. =)

den we headed to mama hse to pass her mooncakes. stayed awhile.. found a reason and slipped away asap. LoLx.. nothing to say also.. anyways.. realised i din buy mooncakes for mama.. as in godma mama.. haix.. mayb later. c how.

headed back home to watch soccer. haha.. so many matches on going at the same time.. slpy..
hubby accompany me watch also.. whole day spent at my hse.. Happy. =)

midnight liddat headed home.. yawns.. vry fast we reach home liao.. cos hubby know i tired. den rush home so i can cont to slp.
sho sweet.. but i got tell him dun ride dangerously..
cos i dun like. n he remembered. haa..

hmm.. sunday woke up at 915am.. cos having my thing den stomach pain. CMI.
cnt slp.
decided to get up n bathe.
feel better liao.. watch Ai Qing Hotel. hahaha..
funny.. wake hubby up at 11am.. still slacking on bed.
nonsense. manage to disturb him wake up. haha..
cos got lunch at Bedok at 12pm with ah ma n family.
Ah gu's treat. win 4d. haha

reached there abt 12.05pm. everyone was there...
eh no. kok's family last to arrive. lalalalalala...
hmm.. ate 8course lunch. damn full. headed back to my hse..
supposedly wanna chiong back home de. cos papa wanna play MJ.
In the end hubby say they going out. so no one at home..

so i call kok n jio guang play MJ. faster come over n MJ. haha.
hubby called KK. so they played.
suppose i play de. then cos my luck bu hao... den hubby play lo. still lose S$10 in the end.

haha.. hmm.. after that they watched tv. me , yin, kok, and guang went to play badminton downstairs. wah damn long no play liao.. abit rusty. ahhaha..
sweat like shit.

anyways after that kok treat us eat KFC dinner. lalala.. cos he won ma..
after dinner, went to Iluma to watch 4bia 2. ewh.. scary show..
hubby den catch a nice big cake for me to bring office. hahaha..
also a dog for Tian. hmm.. decided to head home early..
hubby tio summon cos he park along pavement.. he like sad sad..
haix.. i feel also upset.

nevertheless.. we enjoyed the day..

monday work lo.. after work hubby came pick me..
went to pay bike instalment and headed home liao.

tired. hubby slpet thru till nxt morning. i joined him at abt 8plus.. all din have dinner..

was super hungry. haha. tuesday hubby also came to pick me from work. headed home.
suppose wanted to go malasia pump petrol. in the end, john not free.

so. this morning den pump lo.. yawnz.. getting back to work liao. haha...

=P

MooD: Fun..

2009-09-26T09:14:00.002+08:00

Woo.. after big quarrel, things seem to be a little less tension and more.. relationship based now..

weird. but nevermind that..

hmm last night went JB pump petrol. met up with John. for almost 2 yrs liao. ever since he intro XJ to me, we haven seen each other for the longest time. LOLX..

im talking rubbish liao..
*shake heads.*

anyways.. ltr going to meet Xj at bukit merah there.. he going to service his bike..
after which, going to buy mooncake.. go home take ATM card first. LOLX..
in the other bag.. -.- blurr me.. as usual..

woots. salary in! yea!!! this mth must save... =(

feel damn broke. LOLX.

MooD: Sunshine after Rain..

2009-09-22T13:46:00.001+08:00

it was tough.

but with help and encouragement from Freidns whu really care..

i'm ok.

Thanks guys....!!

=)

MooD: Tears.... that i dun like...

2009-09-20T22:48:00.002+08:00

crying now. shit.

hate the feeling of crying.. cnt stop. tears rolling voluntarily..

anyone knows hw to stop your tears from flowing??

sighs.. sobx.. *sniffs*

1yr7mths and 2days.
this is how long my forever lasted.
this is how far we've come and the road must end somewhere..
just that this time it did not end with "till death do us part"

like many other times.. im a failure. i myself look down upon myself.

i just wanna stay in the dark. whr no one can see me.. or my tears.. or my ugly face.. or my fat body and my ugly self...

MooD: Slpy..

2009-09-15T14:01:00.002+08:00

yawns.. last night slpet abt 1am.. cos was watching Anastasia with Sylvie.. den slpt till abt 545am i woke up liao.. haha.. sensitive my mum's door open den tot she gonna wake me up.. actually she's going to airport.. haha. going China Shanghai..

Fly off this morning coming back on the 22nd.

ate full lunch.. feeling slpy liao.. haha...

later going to Marianne's church wedding rehearsals.. haha.. quite excited that my batch pple getting marrie dand having kids.. =)
Congrats Marianne!! haha.. wish you and your hubby blissful and blessed marriage..
Stanley dun bully Marianne wor.. haha.. must give in 90-95% LOLX.

=X

MooD: Seven..

2009-09-14T08:15:00.003+08:00

Sat after work went to Lynn's hse to bake the cookies thingy... den KK came to pick me to go back play MJ. haha.. won S$17.00.

Woots.. at night went to "Seven" a new club opening at Iluma Bugis...

there was a long queue outside. even with the privelege card, we also gotta queue.. haaa. reached there abt 10pm plus plus.. almost 11pm. nxt time go earlier. haaa.. so queue abt half an hour den finally, our turn to enter. woots! hmmm.. walked in officially for the first time..

The Place.....
ok, place seems nice.. sofa seats all taken..*thinks: nxt week must book.* they have a rather big dance floor(for a club that size..) many round table 'standing' seats were also available. there are also seat near the bar.. ther's 3 pool tables.. all priced at S2.00 per game. you know those put in coin then push the balls will come out de....hmm still gt wad.. oh got like 6-8 electronic dart machines.. cool eh, no wonder the arcade nxt door selling the dart butts. haa.

Music....
love the music there.. kinda old sch and nice R&B. =) mixed with trance and a lil house.. reminds me of the times when i use to club at MS(mohammed sultan) hahahaa...

Drinks....
sooo F expensive. a glass of housepour is like S$12.00. a jug of draft beer(Carlsberg) is like S$36.00. a jug of housepour is S$45.00 and with juice is S$50.00. OMG.. super ex. haaa.. open bottle (Chivas Regal) is S$138.00. got another dunno wad vodka, big n long bottle de is S$238+ i think. lolx cnt rmbr.. so they were having this promo.. DBS/POSB cards get 1for1. housepour glass only at S$12.00 each. meaning S$6.00 a glass lo.. but must pay via your cards.

Crowd....
hmm.. very young crowd, like ranging from 18 to 21? some army guys were there. those just enlisted de. u noe? botak botak type... haaa.. hmm also got alot of young girls like POLY/ITE kinda girls.. some i spotted near the bar was those with spending power, probably 24-27.. surrounded by a few young cute looking girls.. heee..

the dancing started ard 1130pm+++ we sat there drinking a lil.. played a little, yongsheng and yaoren came liao.. they also sat ard and drink. they played pool. then we went to the dance floor.. haa.. not very crowded bah.. compared to Zouk/St James.. really no space to turn type.. hmm so we clubbed till ard 2am coming 3 den headed home.. yawns.. tired ma.. hehe..

Sunday wake up, ate lunch, iron clothes, pluck the corn and played MJ. haha lose S$20.00 =( nvr you win some you lose some right? hahaha.. so anyways broke. haix sianx.

MooD: In Office..

2009-09-12T12:08:00.002+08:00

time is moving so slowly.. partly cos i finish declaring my permits for nxt week's shipments... erm.. finish making payents.. ensuring all the documents are in place... etc etc etc..

Well aft wrk going to Jurong pass Ah Poh docs.. den go Bukit Gombak to Lynn's hse.. hehe.. bake the cornflakes cookies.. for HariRaya.. but i just go for fun la.. its not like i'm celebrating it or wad.. 0.o hmm..

den head home to BP. cos laogong haven had lunch.. mum out for work today early. thus leaving poor fatty at home with the 2 fatty hamsters.. haaa. tian wud have her own programme like asking her bf out for lunch etc etc etc..

well.. last week big quarrel with XJ.. returned him the ring.. haa.. sianx. dun feel like carrying on sthg tt is like wasting my time cos ultimately we're back in sq 1.. den Mon we better liao... hmm.. he made me wear back the ring.. dun wanna quarrel, so i did... feel diff this time wearing it.. hmm i duno...

den out appears Derrick... LOLx... this 23yr old guy, sign on AirForce, drives his own car, no deep impression guy. haaa.. =X but seriously.. i dun really recall which derrick tho...

he IM me on MSN and started conversation. at first i tot is Derrick BB derrick u noe?? cos in my STM memory, i only know this derrick.. so he says he's from RP derrick. i was like "OH!.. who?" haaa den added him on FB.. saw his photo.. frens with john.. etc.. OH!! i noe which derrick liao.. keke.. IT security class. same as John. haaa.. but just cos i always talk to John. nvr reli notice Derrick..

now he's doing good.. sign on AirForce.. like good physique from photos.. like nice tan.. like ok person. and he's friends with Neo Haoyi. Surprise.... hahaha.. same..eh.. wad e word.. erm.. mental block. cnt recall wad's e word. basically is army same jiu dui ler. LOLxx..

So he comes into the picture sms me.. being nice and all.. sweet and cute.. den he's 23. 1986.

dots.. haha.. i duno.. not looking out for anyone as of yet.. just frens i kinda good fer me now.. haa...

MooD: Confused...

2009-09-08T13:23:00.001+08:00

What shud i do.. what is the right way out? who can tell me what i shud do..??

im sad.. so sad.. feel like crying.. control tears.. dun let it flow..

hate this feeling.. so tired.. really tired...

MooD: Total sadness...

2009-09-07T11:17:00.002+08:00

sitting in the office, tears flowing on and off.. cant help but recall wad happen last night.. feeling super down.. make it worse, today came in office not feeling well.. vomitting and headache.

sighs... i dunno wad to do.. im confused.. sad..

i dun like to be sad.. takea alot of energy to be sad.. but being happy generates energy..

i dun like to be sad.. i dun like to cry.. but i'm a crybaby.. cannot control..

sighs..

Mood: New Beginning....?

2009-09-04T14:34:00.004+08:00

i'm stressed. haaa. i don;t know if i really am.. erms.. or am i just worrying too much??

LOVE....
He's an Asshole as usual..with a capital "A" damn pissed off.. sometimes feel like i've made the wrong choice...wrong priorities.. wrong judgement..

FAMILY...
I know you pple don't like him, but ever spare a thought for me? i'm stuck in between. both also nvr spare a thought for me. what you want me to do? split half?

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THOUGHT::
i choose to act blur and feign ignorance.. i keep to myself. i cant tell him off, neither can i tell them off.. this feeling's eating me up.. when i think of it i lose slp. i cnt eat right. my shoulders get stiff.. feel like just forgoing everything.. and i mean EVERYTHING.
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FRIENDS..
I know there's disapproval and "you deserve better" kinda comments.. but they are the most supportive among all.. All try to be there for me instead of against my wishes and keep saying bad stuff abt him.. support when at work.. gatherings.. dinner.. fun.. Marianne's wedding... No matter what i love you guys.. always there for me.. *huggies*

WORK....
Everything is slowing down.. my workload also not as fast paced as before.. but rush hour still there... don't know if its a gd sign or bad sign..

MONEY...
When will cash start flowing in SMOOTHLY? the key word here is SMOOTHLY.... haix.. i dunno..

yesterday i just read a story so meaningful abt choices in life... i feel like i've made all the wrong ones..... sobx....

Mood: Long time didn't blog..

2009-08-29T11:30:00.002+08:00

been busy at work recently.. plus was down with suspected H1N1..MC 5 days n stuff.. bored.. stayed at hubby's place thru out my MC.. haa.. kinda gets better when i c him all the time.. haaa... Hubby no longer plays Maple. hehe.. happy.

however he's kinda into his hp tt RPG game.. still game.. but not that bad la. still can ans me and tok to me. not like Maple.. anyways.. he's definitely better in many ways...

hmmm... ok watch many movies.. too many to speak of, but mainly all the nice,must catch movies, all watched!!

now. next movie to catch FD = Final Destination. Sean n Guang wanna watch too.. duno hubby will arrange to watch tonight anot.... haix.. sian lars... stuck at work.. heavy head.. wanna slp. last night went DblO with Tommy n gang.. Tommmy's bdae ma.. until 2am plus den went home bath and er ya.. until abt 3plus.. tired.. this morning woke up at 7plusam.. came to work.. now waiting for time to flutter by... cant the clock move any faster......????

counting down.. another 45 mins.. tired.. wanna chiong home kunzzz..Zzz

MOOD: Short Weekend...

2009-08-11T15:13:00.005+08:00

so... we did go to Msia that day Saturday.. hehe.. went to Taman garden for dinner.. woots~ Seafood... Crab, Crayfish,Prawns..etc.. the works! we soon headed VCD shop to buy some nice show.. but not really nice either.. nutthing i wanna watch.. so hubby bought like 2 dvd and we left.. came in via Tuas Checkpoint and went out also via Tuas Checkpoint. No Jam.. not much cars either... hmmmm.... came back SG ard 9pm plus?

hehe.. then we went hubby's hse.. MJ!! i was losing 20 plus den hubby took over.. he win back until last 2 rounds Kenny win back.. deardear lose abt 6bucks.. aredy good effort ler lor.. cos i no luck haaa.. cnt get the cards i want.. sobx.. so they played till 230am? but den i was aredy fast aslp on the bed.. they so noisy.. so guess i was half awake half aslp... haaa...

Sunday woke up at 11am.. mum called to ask go shift hse for ah ma.. omg.. dragged hubby up./. went home abt 2pm.. walked to ahma hse.. din do much there.. walk walk see see... went down to buy macs.. heee.. came back we all snacked a lil.. and den went home again.. mum n the rest bathe and went ah ma hse telok kurau liao.. we slack a while at hm.. den reach ah ma place abt 4plus coming 5pm.. den planned to go play snooker.. mum say too late. another time. boring.. so we stuck there.. play cards lor... learned a new card game...Saboteur.. not bad game.. haa.. but i prefer to b saboteur.. easier to win gold.. LOLx... anyways stayed there for BBQ dinner.. watched the NDP parade...abt 830pm, the parade ended. we played MJ for like 30mins b4 we left to head back home.. watch soccer at my place.. Man United VS Chelsea... damn that Rooney for the last min goal.. at 91MINS PLUS!!! shit head. slight offside lo. referee blind.. sighs.. den we headed home.. watch naruto..130am liao.. OMG.. super late nights nowadays... can cry.. den deardear insist wanna watch.. watch halfway.. give up.. kunnzzz...

Monday morning got up at 12plus.. tired.. but couldn't slp cos hungry... hmmm woke hubby up to have lunch.. aft lunch i watch Bai Quan Nu Wang.. Super nice!! heee.. watched while hubby played a lil Maple...DEN HE CAME ACCOMPANY ME WATCH!! omg cnt believe it.. hehe... so we watched until abt 730pm went to waipo hse for dinner.. actually i din wanna go.. but irrirtating hubby like.. i duno.. anyways we went.. ate a lil. met KK and gone to eat more!! haha.. we went to this reli ulu pub at seletar camp there.. can drink, eat, and SING!! whoo-hoo.. i sang like it was my ge ren yan chang hui.. heeee... nice nice.. KK sang too.. haaa... dear dear sang too.. LOLx... so aft tt we headed home.. i watch drama till abt 1am? den gone to bed..

finally tuesday.. OMG.. stone in office again lol. den aft work went home with lynn via bus... reached home ard 730pm.. slack awhile.. ate dinner.. waiting for hubby to come back from OT... he buy fries for me!! woot! den ate fries lo.. aft tt watched bai quan until abt 1130pm.. i told him. DIE! cnt. need to slp liao.. so i hurry off tv go slp.. haaa.. he play his phone lar.

then wednesday went work again.. kinda stone.. haaa.. aft work wanted to chiong home and slp de... shui zhi dao, marianne sms me.. jio me go eat buffalo wings.. LOLx. so again i went seletar camp. before that.. headed to Bugis see brdiesmaid dress.. met cuihui.. we walked to PS aft tt.. meet andy.. then they ride to seleter camp but i had to take cab.. cos hubby wrking OT again..he doesnt want to go anyways..

Lost. haha.. den waited for stanley come out pick me.. LOlx.. apparently it is super super ulu.. reached there, marianne pass me and cuihui one chicken wign each. LOLx. we asked wad lvl spiciness..? no one wanna say... den i half mine with andy. LOLx. cuihui eat.. she couldnt say a single word!! OMG.. den my turn.. i couldnt gasp for air.. no time to gasp for sir.. just had to finish the damn chicken wings... aft finish.. HOT!!!!!! SPICY!!!! OMG!!! HELL!!!! haaaa... drank ice water like no body's business... den andy started to take a bite. LOLX. hilarious! he couldnt stand the spiciness.. keep saying. "hot hot hot hot.. " at that time Stanley already finished his wing and disappeared into the toilet... LOLX... andy forced himself to finishthat drum.. haha.. he was sweating and crying i think LOLx. =X

anyways was fun.. went home last night at 1130pm.. tired.. kunzz.. this morning woke up 630am.. wanted to take train to wrk.. so cn slp in train. in the end, dad send us to work. Cool.. haaa..

i wanna watch GI Joe.. Sobx..

Mood: Office on a saturday...

2009-08-08T09:01:00.002+08:00

Yawns.. barely keeping my eyes open infront of my computer... dozing off a few times while typing my post... ZzZ...

last night went to meet qian after work to check out the bridesmaid dress.. jialat.. ex.
decided check out other places... hmm.. after that we headed to parkway for dinner... after dinner hubby came to pick me. went to lavender eat zhu zha tang with KK... i din eat.. cos ate Swensens liao... went to kallang to watch movie.. before that we headed to ECp.. walk walk lo.. saw kahleng n junyuan. haaa.. anyways watched the where got ghost. Jack Neo movie.. funny but stupid.. total no meaning de.. reached home abt 230am?? this morning dragged myself to work... the night before went to meet marianne to discuss her laogong's sabo session.. omg.. reach home also 2am plus.. tired... total not enuff slp...

later going M'sia with hubby,KK, Kenny and ma-li i think. LOLx. abt 3-4pm.. =)

Mood: Bored...

2009-08-04T16:08:00.001+08:00

why the time like snail liddat de... cannot move faster... ima so bored!!!!!

faster 530pm.. can off work amd go home.. wait for hubby come pick me.. -=)

Mood: Confused..

2009-08-04T11:20:00.003+08:00

i don't understand her.. i really don't. thats all i have to say..

anyways.. yesterday hubby came to pick me from work.. went Sheng Shiong to buy stuff.. ended up forget to bring to work this morning.. haa.. after sheng shiong we went home for dinner... woo bought the Jolly Shandy Peach Flavour and Lychee flavour.. the peach wins!! haha.. nice lar.. hehe.. den slept abt 11pm liddat.. cos waiting for hubby to get off com.. sobx.. yawning away as i typing this post.... *yawns*

okie dokie.. back to work.. =)

Mood: enjoyed the weekends...

2009-08-03T11:24:00.006+08:00

hehe.. fri after work, Hubby came to pick me for dinner and a movie date at Vivo.. hehe.. we watched the movie The Hangover.. funny movie.. hehe. sweet.. some nudity scenes... like when the women breastfeed.. she just lift her shirt. LOLx. then show her breast lor... -.- anyways... the jokes they use very intellegent de.. dun understand then not funny liao. hahaaaa..

hmm.. so after that went home to change and go Movida meet Lynn n parents.. hahhaaaa...
club till abt 2am? then hubby send lynn home.. before that he had met up with his colleagues for billiard session... sent desmond home den send lynn home.. after that we went home too.. i was hungry.. i rmbr.. hahaha..

sat morning woke up abt 11plus.. bugged hubby to get up.. go open his account thingy... after that we went to pay his bike instalments.. den went to Aljunied there.. meet Qian, do hair.

wow.. we sit there from 2pm plus until abt almost 7pm.. LOLx.. i colour my hair, qian rebond.. hehe.. turns out good!! =) so see fb for photos okies?? hehe..

hmm.. after that hubby pick me from Paya Lebar MRT station with KK. then we went for dinner.. went to Serangoon Chomp Chomp.. OMG super full.. ate satay, chicken wings, carrot cake, or lua(oyster fried with eggs..), erm erms.. oh hubby also ate zhu zhu(the shellfish must suck suck de.. LOLX..) we all had big glasses of sugar cane drinks!! i stole hubby's lychee drink.. hehe.. so i drink lychee.. lalalala.. anyways dinner was super good... after that kk send us home... we went back home MJ.. i lost like $2. hubby lost $19. haha. mother lost $12.. Dad sole winner.. -.- then we went to bed liao.. by the time we finish, its already 1am plus..

sunday morning woke up ard 2pm? hubby ask me wanna wake up ma... i also lazy lazy.. wake up ler.. go eat lunch.. MJ again. haha..lost 10 bucks this time
LOLx. hubby won 34 but cover my 10 bucks... hmmm.. mother the releative pass away, she go attend wake.. Tian go to dinner with BF. me n hubby planning to go out for dinner.. watch movie at kallang.. KK called last min, just when we reach the bike.. said he will join us! woot! then we all went tgt to Kallang... bought movie tickets for Overheard. by louis khoo and daniel wu.. cool cool cool.. damn nice. altho in the end 2 of them died.. but nice.. hahaha.. after buy movie tix, we went to the jap restaurant upstairs for dinner.. woo.. KK went downstairs to walk walk cos he had dinner liao.. so went ahead with the movie..

after movie, we took a long drive to different places.. went Geylang.. see chicken.. but roadside so quiet.. no chicken.. hubby say cos alot of chicken got caught with HIV positive.. so sad.. all the old horny men got no where to go liao.. den we headed to Changi V to see ah gua.. hehehe.. wow so damn pretty lor.. breast BIG BIG.. nb.. den hubby disturb say helloo, the ah gua excited only sia.. haaaa.. den we drive off.. very -.- right? LOLx.

we went past OCH.. scary.. then headed to Pasir Ris go see the Red House.. KK nvr see b4 ma.. then hubby suggest we go LIM CHU KANG there.. got one like HDB flat damns cary de...

MOOD: Meeting up with marianne..

2009-07-30T10:48:00.002+08:00

last night met up with marianne.. met up with her hubby's friends..Long Long no see Si Jia and her BF.. and another of Marianne's bridesmaid, Joey.. i think. haaa.. sorry lar. din really get her name.. cute girl. hehe..

We went to Sembawang a grill place on top of the hill.. near the MRT station.. apparently Marianne's into all the Lvl buffalo wings... like the last she went to seletar.. ate till lvl 5.. yesterday there only got until lvl 3.. hahah she say no kick. LOLX.

quite fun la.. spend time catching up.. talking.. checking out each toher's plans... hehe.. got this small girl called gladys.. super cute! hehe.. she's so adorable..

then KK came to fetch me from there.. then we proceeded to pick up hubby at SMU. apparently he went drinking with his colleagues... whcih i wasnt informed.. hmm... no la.. he went to celebrate colleague's bdae... LOLX. then we sent paulyn(bday girl) to her place.. Stanle brought her up.. but called to ask us to leave first.. LOlx. duno. no comments.. =)

MOOD: ANGRY!!!!

2009-07-29T11:58:00.002+08:00

F**K Mastercraft Systems Pte Ltd JENNIFER!!!!

She's the most unreasonable customer! OMG... can die!!!
I informed Eric, this is the LAST cntr we will be doing for them! No More!

Collect Original Bl, Rush payment. avoid storage. truck in truck out within one day, she think we doing only her cntr ist?? f**k. so damn angry... she say i always right, they are at our mercy. wth. i f**king care arh. i owe her arh?!?! they so clever, plsgo find another forwarder to do your stoooopid cntr.

i hope the whole of singapore dun do ur cntr. i see u how. A**hole.

BIG B**CH sia....

MOOD: Double Fish burger!!

2009-07-29T11:37:00.002+08:00

OMG, totally in love with the Macdonals Double Fillet Burger!!! super yumms can... craving past few days..

Yesterday Hubby came pick me aft work.. hehe.. brought me to west coast park the macs there for my Double Fillet Burger with Shaker fries.. Woot. great combo..

aft which we headed home.. Tian was doing Koniyaku Jelly... LOLx... den Hubby went bathe,, me n tian stirr stirr mix mix wash wash clean clean.. hahaa..

after the mixture done, i cut the longan into the moulds.. tian stirring the mixture for it to cool down.. scared will melt... -.- i told them, must put fast fast. later at room temp will start to harden liao.. dun believe.. i bathe finish come out then she do the mould thing.. all gelatanise liao.. LOLx. so we tried our best to make it lo.. turn put quite nice lehs.. LOLX....

haven eaten tho.. ate half and hubby at my other half. watched tv with tian and mum n dad outside the living rm cos hubby playing game.. haix. up to him la. i give up ler like i said. if it works it works. it doesnt den too bad.

so abt 9pm, hubby came out for dinner.. got lian ou tang!! (Lotus roots soup) my fav!! hehe.. all my fav cravings... =) after dinner.. abt 10pm.. slp time!!

MOOD:aft BIG BIG quarrel...

2009-07-27T13:06:00.002+08:00

Just now rain awhile in the aftnoon.. but the sun in my hrt seems to be shining strong.. nothing dampening my mood today =)

aft BIG quarrel yesterday... all truns out well.. still end up slping in bed together..wake up still Mr Ang by my side.. = 0

lurve him all the same... arms hurting like hell tho.. violent dramatic quarrel....

ate my free KFC yesterday.. YIPEE... hehe.. was warmer, on time and super nice!
never noe free meal can taste so good... LOLx... anyways lost MJ ytd.. 29 bucks... lame...

better luck nxt time.. now slpy sia.. jus finish lunch... yawns...

Mood: Can't wait...

2009-07-25T11:52:00.002+08:00

hehe.. today working.. so bored at work.. cnt wait for 1230 to come.. den Weiming will send me go tiong bahru meet Ayu. hehe..

Oya.. last gym session.. COOL CLASS!!! Love the workout.. feeling super energetic aft the punching and kicking and screaming. LOLx. =P hmm.. feel the gag in my stomach tho.. shag... jump jump ard, shuffle up n down.. punch left, hook right.. OMG.. for an hour non stop!!!! =)

got alot of aunties.. or executives. (they look like) then aft Body Combat class, went for the yoga class nxt... can cry.. yoga class. Not Fun. PAIN~~ >.< scared to go 2nd time sia.... LOLx...

Today thinking of signing the package liao. at GWC. so attending class there today. Body Pump and Body Combat. consecutive!! =) cnt wait.. hehhee... if body pump class i also dun like then probably dun wanna sign liao. cos classes quite limited.

Hungry.......missing laogong too... so near yet so far.. haix.. dun talk abt it...

MOOD: STRESSED~

2009-07-23T14:11:00.001+08:00

sighs.. stressed.. so much work. why always when lynn on leave my work increase so much... sighs....

Mood: Gym.. True Fitness..

2009-07-23T08:33:00.002+08:00

Hehe.. yupps. yesterday went to True Fitness.

Lynn and Ayu suggested to go.. all on a lose weight strike! hahaha.. anyways.. the package is of such. For one outlet, promo price, $79 monthly membership fee for 1yr. unlimited usage of facilities, and can join all their classes free... yupps.. hua right?? but Ayu cnt commit for a yr.. den in the end nvr sign up..

So Halim, the very nice sales guy, gave us free trial passes. so tonight ima going gym!! yea (for the first time!!) =) tonight will be attending 2 classes back to back. xiong anot hehhe.. then of cos.. Lynnn wun b joinging us cos she nt comin work today..

yesterday evening i was at gym with lynn n Ayu, Fiona sms me.. say she and JJ quarrel. den he dun wan ans her call. off the phone. she say wanna die. OMG.. i sms her she say she duno whr is she. at some park. then got drink. then alone. OMG. wanna kill her. so after my gym talk thing, i asked her whr is she. she no reply. i call call call no one ans. then finally she pick up. i told her i cabbing down liao. tt time was 9plus coming 10. i told her to wait for me downstairs her hse. when i reach her place, i call her, her phone off... wth?! i keep calling. no choice i called JJ. ask him to call her. cos she like missing. i waited till 11 30 liddat then she called me. i so angry i reli fuck her upside down... nb.. i almost wanna go call police and tell her parents lor... this woman arh.. lucky got cuihui pei me on the phone... haix.. cnt stand tt fiona. Anyways.. JJ did not call Fiona. did not reply her also. even things he say to her i find weird weird de...

i duno.. beginning to find guys damn weird.. funny mindset. cnt understand liao... Lynn with Kai, XJ, JJ, KK..etc.. all the out of this world thots.. mayb cos i know what Fiona wants.. wad Lynn wants.. haix.. i duno.. men complicated.. non is a good man... all good men die liao. or gays.. or married... haix.. i duno.. sianx.. just nowadays.. men are not what they use to be ler...

sighs..*thinking*

Mood: Raining..

2009-07-22T08:25:00.001+08:00

My heart is like the rain.. so heavy... haix..

anyways.. what i wanna say already say liao.. last night sms him. duno if he understood wad i saying... he say i wanna find someone quarrel with.. den wad he nvr gan me i cannot guai.. fine la. up to him. i give up liao.. do wadeva he pls...

i'm tired.

Emotional..

2009-07-20T08:36:00.002+08:00

its the time of the month.. haa.. lotsa feelings i'm havin.. duno wad to make of them..

i'm tired i guess... tired of feeling the way i feel. mayb i'm thinking too much??

i duno.. wish everything will just go away.. if life were just simpler.....i'm born in the wrong era i guess. LOLx. My generation has too many downs tt i dun like.. wad to do.. tt's life...

today totally moodless... i duno.. mayb a cooling period is probably the best for both of us.. i dun wish to contact him. i dun wish to hear his voice.. neither see him.. just wish everything can just go away.

To him:
i'd probably ignore your calls.. i'd probably not meet you.. i'd probably not sms you..
just take this time off to think what you really want from this r/s.. what this r/s means to you... i need time to think too.. whether this is my life i've decided... i use to know.. now.. i duno anymore.. you say i've changed.. mayb i did.. but u did too.. i guess pple change... sighs.

Just get well soon. hopefully, its just the time of the mth tt's y im feeling so much..
Love you.

Mood: Harry Potter & the Half Blood Prince..

2009-07-18T12:13:00.002+08:00

Woot. Movie at midnight.. hehe

last night went to meet Qian for a pedicure at Beary-Nice nails.. love the ambience there. it is located in Tampines S11 2nd floor there... the pple there r nice.. they are friendly.. engaging us in talk all the time.. not some boring procedure.. the place has a nice fragrance as well.. free one drink.. hehe CHEAP!! ima gg there to do my eye lash extension... waxed my legs ytd... and QIAN did waxing for the first time too!! hehe.. i psycho her de.. plus, the lady boss i think, Cecelia, gave her half price just to assist me in psychoing her to do it.. hahhaa... she say not use to leg no hair. i told her she will like it de lo.. its addictive!! LOLx...

Anyways by the time we're done its like 10 plus coming 11 liao.. we went to macs for dinner.. haha.. hungry like shit.

so aft dinner we just sat there n talk talk lo.. mum n syl n sean came abt 12... weili n bf came nxt.. Alvin also arrived.. den comes Samantha.. Late!

hehe we bought the Harry Potter popcorn set.. cute! comes in a boiler(popcorn) and the drinks in a wizard's hat shape cup(the hat only on the top tho =) ). yupps then we watch from 1230am.. the show ended abt 315am!! OMFG.. i sit until i keep fidgeting LOLx..

the show was gd.. better than the previous-es... hehe.. Two thumbs up! must go watch... =)

Mood: So Angry

2009-07-17T13:10:00.002+08:00

I'm sooo angry!!

with Mr Ang. wah hopping mad..
wanted to explain y i angry.. now i think think.. fuck. dun wanna are liao.

His own life.
He choose wad he wanna do. I do wad i wanna do.

dun fucking care liao.

tonight meeting Qian for dinner, and sister n friends for movie.
Fuck BF. let him do wad he wants.

sick i also dun care liao....

Mood: Relationships...

2009-07-17T11:08:00.002+08:00

Relationships are so fragile...

I hope everything will be fine for him. What's yours is yous.. if its not meant to be.. LET GO!!
Haix.. i'm feeling so angry inside. LOLx. duno y..

Mood: Marianne's Getting Married...

2009-07-16T13:14:00.005+08:00

hehe.. Marianne's getting married!! hehe.. she's the first of our group now.. Lalala..

she's only inviting Me, Qian, Cuihui and Amelia.. Lolx.. Just the close friends..=)

Anyways.. its gonna be on the 19th Sept 09.. Chinese calendar is 8月初1.. nice date!

She's gonna have a Church Solemnisation followed by the banquet at Park Royal Hotel @ beach Rd.. =) im sure she's gonna be bright tt day hahaha..

Envious.. when's my turn?? LOlx. =X

My mum just called me.. ask me go ROM. Lolx. i also duno y...

Mood: Slow day at work..

2009-07-15T15:50:00.001+08:00

Hmmm i'm BORED to tears... T.T

clock ticking slowly.. like taking a million gazillion milliseconds to tick one second!
Sobx..

Waiting for reply from her.. Lolx.. am i too over??

Mood: so full...

2009-07-15T13:19:00.002+08:00

yawns.. eat full can slp liao.. haha PIG.. LOlx..

Hmm yesterday aft work share cab with Lynn back.
The taxi drivier driving skills sucked!!! i almost can die inside.. in the end drop at lynn's hse..
dun wanna take his cab ler. angry~~

so end up take another cab back BBP.. hehe.. den went to hair salon to wash hair.. cos having headache, a gd massage will be great~ hehe.. so... last night after dinner wanted to MJ den changed mind. watched DVD instead...

Haha.. fianlly Huang Fei Hong last episode!! watched finish ler.. shiok!

What's next?? hehe...

Mood: Bored..

2009-07-14T13:22:00.000+08:00

today really nutting much to do.. haix.. boring... duno what i can do!!!

help!!

MOOD: New York New York~

2009-07-14T09:14:00.002+08:00

hehe.. yuppss.. went to New York for dinner last night.. haha.. not New York as in new York USA.. but New York the restaurant. LOLX.. =P

Hmm yesterday hubby picked me up from work. we went to make his contact lense.. daily disposables.. only 75Bucks a mth!! hehe.. i wanted to make oso but scared to wear contacts.. sobx. anyways.. then we went to Lot1 cos wanted to go the SingPost collect my purchases which i bought from 13th ave. but the stupid Post Office CLOSED!! oh man... then we headed off to Lot1 for dinner at NEW YORK NEW YORK*said with echo....*! Dinner was FANTASTIC!! yummss.. hehe i had spaghetti with half a roast chiken.. hubby had half a roast chicken. we ordered baked mussels and wedges! heh.. he ordered a very intertesting drink. called "Bloody Eyeballs" LOLs. the eyeballs is made up of Lychee dyed red!! and blackberry in the middle LOLx.. really looked bloody.... haha. me just had root beer float.. =)

and then after dinner went walk walk.. oooh got VCD/DVD Sale!! WE BOUGHT DVDs!!! haha.. as usual.. OMG DVD madness nowadays.. they were going for like $5 a piece, $15 for 2.. all nice shows.. hehe.. classics.

went bowling at Safra Yishun. met KK and Kenny... hehe.. woot. good game ytd.. beat hubby at the last game!! yea...~ haha after the game headed home to watch Naruto.. ooh getting exciting.. if only it didnt come out only once a week. i surely chiong de.. hahahaaa..

yawns.. now at work liao.. abit bo liao. cos did my work last evening whilst waiting for hubby to come pick me from work.. tt fella.. chao geng MC 2 days lor.. the doctor must be fake!

hehe.. work time.. lalalalala...

Mood: Number 1 most CRAZY thing done on impulse

2009-07-13T12:55:00.004+08:00

Hi Bloggie long time no update ler.. hmm miss me wor?? haha.. ima crazy..

Friday mornign was on MC.. poor me.. diarrhoea.. sobx.. doctor medicine was super tho.. 2 pills and my diarrhoea-ing stopped!! hehe.. feel better.. finish my Korean F4 drama.. Lalala... den watch Igor.. Cute show lehs.. hehe..

well.. at night went prawning with KK and hubby.. we went bishan there.. caught a pathetic 3 prawns.. hehe.. hmm 1 hr only ma.. wadya expect.. then we were playing with the idea whether to go Genting anot... threw a coin to decide... and finally coin says "GO" so we went.. LOLX.

Number 1 most crazy thing i did on impulse!! Sudden decision to go Genting Highlands in malaysia..

Drove KK car.. we drove a 3hrs plus plus journey on the malaysia's north south expressway.. to the EXIT!! Cheras.. then the exit we drove another hr plus or so to another exit Genting Highlands!! den up the hill another 30-45mins.. hmm.. the road was much brighter and clearer compared to the first time we drove up to genting... ooh the whether is so cold.. we can off the aircon and open small gap in the window, it feels like 18 degrees in the car.. hahaha...

Reached genting abt 7am - 8am.. went for breakfats at KFC.. not fantastic.. after that we went to Casino... played French Boule!! actually win RM$400 bucks.. den i lost till abt win RM$250 nia.. LOL.. better then my hubby.. lost almost RM$500 bucks.. crazy fella...

we left abt 2pm liddat.. OMG almost lost in Msia.. GOodbye to Singapore.. Sobx... the goondoo Mr Ang la.. took wrong turn when coming down the slope in genting.. then we were heading towards Selangor!! OMG it the wrong directions! i was slpin in the car.. when i woke up, they were still heading straight.. OMG i was panicking liao.. if i nvr wake up, we'd probably drive all the way up to Thailand!!!! hahaha.. so anyways we manage to find our way back ler.. with help from hubby's DaJie.. follow the aeroplaine she said.. that's wad we did.. so we manage to reach SG abt 8pm... Sorry KK.. cos he rushing to meet Sharon.. then Sharon aft certain hrs, dun wanna go out liao.. haix duno if they met up anot.. *guily..*

so reached home bathe and cleaned up!! mum n dad at hm.. we played MJ till abt 1am.. sleep till aftnoon 2pm.. wake up for lunch.. aft which slp again till abt 6pm.. tt Stoopid Pig dun wan wake up.. den make sarcastic remarks.. make me angry.. ignore him.. anyways after dinner then came back played MJ again.. haha.. win $$$ hehe win abt 32 bucks!! hehe..

after that watch DVD until slp lor.. yawns.. this morning.. hubby sick.. no go work.. but he sent me to work.. hehe.. den doctor gib him 2days MC wor.. KNS.. hehe.. so wonder tmr he also send me to work?? hehe

MOOD: Happy Bdae Mummy!!!!

2009-06-24T10:38:00.002+08:00

hehe.. last night went to give Mummy a surprise Bday party... Lalalalala...

dad organised this bdae celebration for mum @ a CSC in Tessensohn Road. Pisces KTV.. Sound ok right? when we reached there.. the music coming out was like from DECADES AGO!!! omg.. i stun when i walk in.. ALL OLD UNCLES N AUNTIES!!

Wahahaha.. later we got in, the KTV owner open a room for us to "HIDE" in.(surprise ma) den he told us we can sing inside as well.. Woot!! hehe den we njoy only lor.. bought food stuff.. brazil food... Old Chnag Kee.. all finger food.. duno tt ANG din eat dinner but nt sure he ate full ytd..hmm...

anyways.. last night got home abt 1plus i think.. damn shag.. ima sooo tired... still dragged myself to work.. actually mr ang drag me to work but still.. HAIX.. shag.. i was so slpy this mroning ont he bus.. reach my cbus stop tt time i wake up to find out that it is raining super heavily... OMG.. stuck at the bus stop for almost 45mins... until rain stop den walk go buy brkfast and back to office... sad.. could have came in early to rest in the end stuck at bus stop standing...... seats wet.. OMG.. wad a day..

tonight gg to movida.. Drink again.. omg my stomach cnt take it liao lar.. haaaa...

MooD: My Weekend...

2009-06-10T21:46:00.002+08:00

Well.. No time to upload come wednesday den got time to update.. haaa...

mm lets see... sat morning woke up at 430am to get ready to go Batam with XJ and family... waipo got go.. kimpo also got go... tian also went.. her bf wei sheng also went.. so yupps.. basically tom dick and harry also went. hahaha.. the group was like 80 over pax.. !!!! haha.. we went to visit a so called kueh lapis factory.. then they had free samples for us to try.. with coffee also.. most of our tour the pple are aunties uncles.. like late 40s and early 60s.. so as typical singaporeans, they all just try and eat and den.... dun buy anything. LOLx..

oya oya.. on the ferry, haven reach the destination, they all already stand up and stand at the exit.. omg... so paiseh.. typical singaporeans....... O.O

ok.. nxt we went to 2 brdiges they call "lover's bridge".. erms the water looks swirly.. then the tour guide say if u fall in, surely gone case de.. cos the water works like swilrpools.. very fast you get suck in and thats the end of you..... oooh scary.. ok nxt stop.. Polo Ralph Lauren.. SO EX!!!! each polo abt70 - 80 SIN dollars.. SIAO~~ no way man.. i rather go buy some gd ole Fila or smthg.. WTH 70-80 bucks for a Polo T??? madness... nxt we went to Temple fro Vegetarian Lunch.. SUCK!! the food was DISGUSTING!!!! haix.. dissapointed... after lunch we went to watch Kuda Kepang.. but its so.. er.. boring.. nothing scary.. nuttin like wad i watched on Utube... another dissapointment.. nxt stop another Polo Shop.. Called Polo Classic.. also EXPENSIVE!!!! haix... Emo... Fianlly they bring us to Nagoya Hills.. Shopping Centre!! yea~ should have brought us there the first stop ler... LOLs.. anyways. shop shop shop.. but int he end i olny bought one LV bag, and a sexy nightie.. hehe.. Oya also my DKNY Be Delicious Green Apple.. Yipee!! haha...

Last stop we went to eat Seafood.. wow.. shiok lor.. the food taste reli shiok.. probably cos nvr eat much at lunch.. (vegetarian.. ewh..)

hmm.. sunday slept till abt 2pm.. wake up lunch.. den went back home... put the kueh lapis and also wash BIKE!! hehe.. after that my laogong bring me go eat black pepper crabs.. hehe my fav.. yummss.. den aft tt we went to meet KK to watch movie.. watch the Blood.. OMG scary... haix i damn lousy.. haaa..

OMG type so long only till Sunday.. Monday went work.. after work went to Ahma hse for BBQ.. wanted to ask baobei come too but he OT till 10PM!! crazy office.. keep him back till so late... haix... nvrtheless, he came to pick me up then we went back home ler.. i cook noodles for him to eat.. Tues i went home.. met tracy.. wed.. im here again. LOLx.. cos tmr gg to sign HDB Agreement of Lease... Haix.. Scared Scared..

hmmm.. ok im gg to kunzz soon.. yawns.. tmr update again??
Oya facebook like got bug sia.. cnt upload photo... sobxx..

MOOD: Settling Down..

2009-06-05T08:40:00.002+08:00

Hmm HDB letter finally came liao.... appointment date: 11/06/09

Moment of truth.. will i sign the papers?? will i back down??

this is the moment i've been waiting for my entire life... and it all comes down to this qns.. is HE the one i wanna spend my life with.. my entire life with.. the person i wanna grow old with.. the person who will hold my wrinkly hand when im too weak to walk.. the person who will stay by my side thru good and bad times, health and sickness and happy or sad times...

The answer is...

Yes.. i wanna be with him cos i see my future with him.. yet.. i still hope the gaming leaves my almost 'perfect' life-to-be... and that he'll show more of what he actually feels..

i wonder if he knows..... is he ready??

MooD: Loving him.. Feeling Small..

2009-06-02T19:17:00.001+08:00

Just read some stuff that i shouldnt have read.. just that the curiosity killed me.. damn.

Im dead...

MooD: All Smiless.. Happy Day~~

2009-06-01T11:44:00.005+08:00

hmm lets see.. friday aft work went St James with my colleagues.. Lynn, WeeMing and Tommy. Eric suppose to come. but no show.. aeroplane lo.. haha.. left abt 1am plus.. Hubby came to pick me.. hehe.. send his fren home, on the way went west coast tabao MACS... hehe...

went home.. abt 2am liao.. i slp ler. nxt morning wake up go to work.. ZZZ... reach office abt 9am.. YinYin came later than me wor.. almost 10 ler.. haha.. i tot i vry late liao... den aft work weeming send me back to BP. tired. tt pig still slping. hehe.. so i also join him slp..

lie there hug him abt 2secs i Zzz ler.. hahaha~!! duno why i hug him surely slp uber fast de.. =P den, mama had to knock on the door... i go open the door, he dun lemme hug him slp lioa... SOBX.. angry i go slp on the other bed ler... then slp until abt 430pm, he wake me up.. say need to go pay his bike instalment and fix his horn.. no sound de.. hhahaaa.. went to Bukit merah first to fix his horn cos closing at 6pm.. fix a vry loud air horn. omg i told him scully he horn car to warn them in the end the car scared den wanna siam him go langa th other side... lOLX... so farni~~~

nxt stop: Toh Guan pay bike instalment... aft tt we went IMM to collect my watch.. fix hao liao.. hehe went to walk walk in IMM.. went Daiso.. OMG see so many babies and kids... haha.. soooo ccccuuutttee!!! =) feel like hugging them n playing with them wor.... hahahhaaa..

hmm we went Secret Recipe to have dinner.. i had Prawn Arrabiata, he had Grill Chicken.. the prawn was uncook.. as in not fully cooked.. stillc an see the gry gry colour.. eeewh and i ate like 3 liao.. sobx. he complain to the waitres.. they gave me complimentary soup and a whole new dish.. OMG i so full cos i ate half the bowl liao they change new one for me... hahhaaa.. we also ordered the marble cheese cake.. YUM YUM... hehe.. then we head on home.. collect car so my house watch soccer.. Chelsea VS Everton.. OMG ok game nia lor.. like chelsea not best form.. but later picked up a lil...

the mactch ended abt 12am.. we wanted to go watch movie de.. the timing not nice plus the movie not the kind he wanna watch.. oh no sianed.. so we decided head home lor... on the way home in the car, suddenly ask me," abor we go sing k la" stunn.. he jio me k lehs.. LOLS.. guess wad.. we went K. HAHAHA!!

2 siao pple go Orchard sing K at 1.15am.. LOLx.. sing 4hrs summore until 5plus.. omg.. went to eat macs for breakfast.. reach home abt 6plus.. slp until aftnoon 2pm bah.. hmm.. wake up play MJ with mum n dad.. until abt 9pm.. went dinner.. at Aston's Katong there.. with Tian, Hubby, and mama.. papa stayed home.. tired LOLS. den aft which on the way home decided to go pump petrol and go JP the 24hrs NTUC shop shop.. reach home tt time is 1230am ler.. yanws.. ZzZ time to slp but no!! watch Naruto.. omg getting exciting ler.. hehe.. slp abt 1plus bahx.. this mornin hubby wake me up, asking me to quick go wash up cos today monday and beginning of the mth. he got alot of things to do at work.. so end up i reach office this morning at 740am.... hehe.. took a short nap and woke up at 835 liddat.. ehhehehe. shiok.

now.. just had lunch.. slpy again.. laogong say i PIG PIG.. but he like wad.. HAHA. =P

okies.. back to work liao.. bubuayzz.. tonight meeting tracy for dinner =)

MooD: Happy.. yet not so great..

2009-05-28T22:48:00.003+08:00

hmm.. just received letter from HDB.. my long awaited ans regarding my grant.. I've manage to get it! 30K..!! haha divided equally between me n baobei.. so 15K each will be deposited into our CPF account...

at first happy to see this news... ltr.. erms.. abit.. you yu.. you know?? hahha.. like stuck in between.. leads back to the qns.. the way im leading my life now.. is this how i wanna live it for the rest of my life... or will things change?? for the better or the worst...?? now money is an issue to us.. in future will it be better or worst??

Wedding vows go something like "in sickness and in health, for better or for worse...till death do us part..." something liddat lar.. haha.. hmmm...

confused... now still waiting for another letter to inform us the date to go down to sign the agreement for lease... after i sign this, i pay the first 5% downpay via CPF (cos got grant).. den... if anything happens from now till the time we get married... haix.. mafan.. dun wan think liao...

need to go withdraw monay.. pay mama for the 4d tmr. LOLx... think shun pian go eat smthg...

HUNGRY!! Sobxx.. T.T

MooD: Barcelona VS Manchester United

2009-05-28T15:07:00.002+08:00

2-0 Barcelona takes the championship spot..

Disappointing match by Man U as usual... Cristiano Ronaldo flopped like a chicken and the rest were just flustered.. Barcelona on another hand had many great shots at the goal.. took the chance, made it happen. Their passing was super too... of cos cannot compare with Liverpool... *Gerrard is sooo CUTE*

Oya, speaking of which, Liverpool is coming to Singapore~!!! OMG.. Liverpool VS Singapore Team.. total mismatch.. i wanna go~~~ but laogong dun wan go.. damn Longwei.. he'll be going.. den keep reminding me he'll be seeing Gerrard.. haha.. me wanna see cutie too.. HAHHA.. but laogon dun wanna go den ok la.. den dun go lor.. bo bian..

Hmm.. suppose tmr going Movida with Lynn, Tommy, Weeming and Eric. Jio mum go too with Carol, Eeling etc.. but looks like going to cancel ler.. cos Lynn got no green light from husband.. her sister in law bdae tmr also.. LOLx... so happening...

Fiona bday coming too... Sabrina suggest go K tonight.. i boring(tired) lehs.. woke up at 245am to watch the match of the century sia. duno why my delete button cnt work now.. sianx duno what i press lehs.. haha..

Talk abt this morning.. KNS i wake up to find the bloody SCV not working~!! MUM forgot to pay the bill they cut the service at 12pm!! wtf.. i went coffeeshop to watch match lor.. squeeze with smoking uncles and rude maads.. (malay bengs) OMG.. but i got over it and manage to catch the match i'm excited to watch hehe..

Now looking forward to Chelsea VS Everton.. think what's the outsome ne??

Mood: Happy tired.. haha..

2009-05-26T11:38:00.002+08:00

This morning so tired.. almost dozed off on the bike.. but scared get scolded so nvr slp slp ZZzz.. hmm this mornign reach office. the most qi ji thing happen. my boss intercom me tell me salary in liao.. i stunn.. haha.. i just orh.. then he put down the phone... o.o duno why he gd mood today arh. or needed someone to bitch with no one in office yet.. hahaha aiya. he old man. need to talk to someone de.. i understand... hahahahahhaaaaa...

anyways.. lynn on leave today.. so me alone.. not much time to blog.. yesterday wanted to upload my photos to facebook.. but lagging lyk shit sia.. angry~~ :@

oya.. baobei sms me this morning.. he say

"oh deardear forgot to tell u... recently you like more pretty..."

HAHAHHA~~!!!*rolling*

my reply

"? why leh? last time not pretty la... -.- how come working suddenly say this?"

He say cos forgot.. -.- play game until can forget to compliment your own gf.. oh sad.. hahahaha.. i duno.. he crazy de.. tt's y i say he happy happy give u sweet sweet.. not happy den give u emo... hahaha... tt's my laogong lor..

oya Friday colleagues going to St James Movida... hahaha go chill lo.. i tell him he say cannot... -.- haix.. sped time with my colleagues like got wrong sia...

when going to play MJ again.. hands itchy liao.. haha.. KK larr... super buay on....

Mood: Uploading photos in FB

2009-05-25T20:49:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. updating my photos.. OMG.. sianx.. the uploader so slow.. like lagging...

anyways.. laogong snoring so loud just now.. he is reli tired.. still stay awake in the middl of night to play game.. fight boss.. crazy fella...

haix.. anyways still uploading photos.. ltr pple.. toodles.

MooD: Thinking of you..

2009-05-25T09:11:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. this morning, i've decided that it is better to be loved than to be in love.. all works out to nothing more than just being carefree and enjoying life..

so i'm just gonna lead my life the way it leads me to be.. i dun wanna force against nature of will i do anything else that will hurt this future.. haha.. general picture.. =)

Doots.. duno wad i talking abt liao.. anyways wetn swimming ytd with Laogong(XJ), Tian(XJ's Sis), Ting Ting(their cousin) and mama(XJ's mum).. haha.. went to 3rd aunt's(Xj's aunt) condo to swim.. hehe.. wah damn long nvr swim liao.. surprised i still rmbr how to do so.. LOLx...

hmm ima busy this morning.. blog ltr.. =)

MooD: New Look..

2009-05-22T15:25:00.002+08:00

Wahaha.. new skin.. hehe..

Nice ma nice ma?? keke.. i love this skin.. reminds me to SMILEssssss.....

Hmm... i think my manager crazy agn.. screaming.. hahaha..

so bored otday i actually got time to change blog skin.. hehe good news.. that skin like been ard for ages.. time for a new look anyways... haha.. hmm actually is change bf then change blog look de.. but this time no change bf lehs.. haha.. mayb changed in thinking bahx.. tt y need a new look to suit me~!!!

hehe.. ok.. back to acting busy liao.=D

Mood: So full.. So tired.. So bored..

2009-05-22T13:38:00.002+08:00

Hehe.. just got back from lunch wor.. so full.. so tired.. so bored... hurhur..

Lynn shared with me her story when she was younger.. before she got married.

That time she was still a manager in Macdonalds.. there's this guy whu likes her and to get to know her.. went the the macs there to apply for floor manager position.. haha.. then tt time Lynn interview him.. he made her laugh.. sho sweet.. but tt time Kai (lynn's husband currently) also wooing her.. then this guy (erm we'll call him "A"). A rides a scrambler.. lynn's fav type of transport. haha but she nvr once took his ride home. one thing cos he's not her type. just no feel you know? once she was on duty, he came down and bought delifrnace for her. he said"just thot u might be sick and tired of macs food, so here's something different for a change" she din noe what to say. he left. another time he came down with chocolates and said"you looko tired.. i bought some chocolates for you to boost energy.." but they were nvr tgt.. her reason being he's not her type. then one day he had to go away for a long time.. he bought a yelow soccer ball and wrote how he felt towards her all over the ball.. he put it in a ball net and tied it with a ribbon. it was so sweet.... but they were nvr tgt.. no chance given cos she said. not her type.

then i ask her.. if you could turn back time to do it all over again would you have chosen kai or A?
she said. she will choose A. cos it's better to be loved.. then to be in love. because being in love, you become more vulnerable to hurts from the man you love.. whereas, when you're being loved.. you just enjoy being loved by the man whu loves you deep deep...

very smart idea.. but not much pple can do that can they? when one day i can do that, i know whu to look for. hahaha.. the not my type kinda guy. LOLs....

MOOD: Tired..

2009-05-22T10:02:00.002+08:00

Lolx.. last night wetn sakae for dinner again.. they ordered big big big big bowls of ramen.. OMG.. so full liao i see them eat like this.. sianx... anyways.. then after tt KK send me go XJ house.. hehe paiseh he had to wait so long den travel up n down. haha.. hope he manage to get his chocolate milk last night.. =)

Wonder how is everyone nowadays.. trying to arrange a meet up with Marie & Bridget soon.. hhaa.. so much catching up to do... how is everyone in their lives... past, present, future.. today work not very busy.. finish my permits and payments..did some invoicing also.. then filing.. now.. abit bored.. and feeling slpy... tired...

last night went to laogong's hse to pass him ba zhang... ah ma make de.. uber nice k.. haha.. but so fatty and oily.. LOLx... anyways.. then we were watching bleach.. ooh.. until super tired lo.. haha... i sit there my eyes going to say goodbye liao..

oya.. dresses i bought from vintage online blog, is still not here!! OMG.. had to pay freaking GST.. haha... hmm den must pay $0.30 more for each dress.. aiya.. small matter.. haix.. sianx.. just must wait really long...

hmm just now bored.. then reading friend's blog.. saw this old blog post from Sharon's Blog... it says something like this..

"dear lord in heaven hear my prayer..
i pray for everyone's safety.. i please you help me get rid of all my unhappiness.. i dun wan any memories of him.. i wan that to be erased as soon as possible.. pls bless me.. i wan happiness.. i need someone that will shower me with all the love".. the care and the happiness.. i promise i will treasure this time.. AMEN!"

I think Lord heard your prayer babe.. learn to treasure..not everyone has your luck.. haha.. sighs.. talking abt prayers, i haven been going to church for like abt 2yrs plus ler.. OMG.. sinful.. miss service.. cell.. and my favourite pastor!! his sermons are the most enjoyable.. and the best parts is i lean stuff and rmbr what he says... haha.. sighs.. nvr see him liao.. den feeling lost in my religious directions... hmm..

Christians.. VS.. Buddhism.. Vs.. Free Thinker.. haha.. are we even allowed to choose??

MOOD: Give Up..

2009-05-21T08:58:00.002+08:00

Last night went Sakae for dinner.. after which went to see cuihui.. she meeting with her part-time Ally... they going to watch movie... Angels & Demons.. LOLx i watched liao.. so not interested.

Night at the Museum 2 this Friday.. Asked XJ if he cfm ma.. he say dun wan. cos nowadays he need to work OT everyday must at least clock 12hrs. say he rather go home slp.. i tell him i dun think so lo.. Friday night lehs. he where got slp de sia.. haix.. dun talk abt it.. kek xim arh.. sighs.. he's reason being at home play game no need do anything.. watch movie must go out and travel so far somemore... -.- i nothing to say liao..

trying my best to keep this relationship going.. but he.. i duno.. trying very hard to tear this perfect picture up... sianx.. yesterday i also suggested i go his place.. dun go out. cos he say tired ma. finish work late last night.. then he say dun need. then i ask him again.. he say dun wan. T.T haix.. Emo.. why my bf liddat.. haix.. summore wanna get HDB liao.. wanna commit liao. den he chu this type of pattern.. OMG.. suddenly sia.....

i sms him say i give up liao. he wan meet den call me. dun wan call den forget it.. sianx..

i'm tired. one yr plus into the relationship, i get this kinda treatment... cannot imagine after marriage... sighs..

MOOD: Smiles....

2009-05-20T08:54:00.002+08:00

Last night went party world with colleagues.. hehe.. Cuihui came along.. pei me.. haha.. wah lau so called practising for the Sunday Audition of dun forget the lyrics chinese version...

OMG. disaster.. haha.. alot of old song i duno.. sobx.. =X

haha.. hmm miss my bbaobei.. hais.. poor deardear.. must start to do OT liao.. cos his colleague's wife going to give birth ler.. taking leave to look aft wife.. haha.. *sayangs* hmm hungry.. feel like having long johns... haha.. oh oh i bought magazines today!! Simply.Her, Womes's Weekly and 8days.. hehe.. later lunch can read... so tired liao.. thinking of gg BP tonight. duno lehs.. duno if wanna go anot... haix..

Time flies.. coming to the end of May liao... sighs.. i'm growing older!!!! SOBX!!!

MOOD: Tired..

2009-05-19T08:39:00.002+08:00

Last night met up with cuihui, amelia, Qian for dinner.. we went for Fish & Co.. yea~ been craving for it for quite some time ler.. haha.. i wa sat tamp as early as 630pm.. cuihui late.. still stuck at the doctors.. so i walk walk ard lo. tt Amelia Tan.. say 7pm finish tuition, but nvr call me. call her or sms her nvr reply..

so i walk aimlessly ard T1.... TM...Century.. Boring.. even went to Sharon house downstairs to walk walk.. saw tailoring shop, went in to ask if they could alter my jeans for me and i collect immediately? the uncle so nice. ask me go buy a bottom so i can change out for him to alter the jeans for me (cos i was wearing it) haha...

anyways so i was walking ard whilst waiting for the jeans to be done, i saw this stall selling very interesting thing. can put your photo in like a bear.. hmm.. tonight got chance den upload. haha.. pls refer to fb. ty.

oya oya. shocking news.. Marie also in the Logistics line... OMG i din noe.. goes to show how lost of touch i am. aha.. sianed.. so trying to arrange a meeting with her lo.. Bridget too.. haaa... hmm sian tonight no one pei me again.. maybe meeting cuihui for dinner... duno qian can make it anot.. haix.. sianed arh~!!!!!!!!! *shouts.....*

i din make up today. haha.. think must look like shit.. maybe later den go toilet powder myself.. tonight i wanna go TM there to do the doll picture thingy.. haha. fri den pass to him lo.. bo bian.. hmm.. thinking.. what else did i forget.. oya.. then after dinner we went to starbucks.. sit ard talk talk.. suddenly kk call me. stun. he ask wanna go out anot cos xj ask him call me.. so he came pick me.. we sent amelia home.. talked alot in the car after amelia left..

im still clueless btw... haha... i duno.. sian... see how things go bah..

i'm tired.. not only physically.. but also mentally... feel like disappearing.. can?

haha...

MOOD: Sianed..

2009-05-18T16:54:00.002+08:00

He's going home to maple..i cnt stop thinking abt the fact that i called him to ask if he wanna have dinner tgt.. cos tonight is anniversary.. altho not big date but still it's 1yr 3mths liao..

the answer i get from him is not free. got thing to do at home. maple that is.. ima disappointed.. any other day he chose his game over me.. i "ren".. on this day he choose that fucking game over me..

my last straw.. Mr Ang. I got to choose for my own future. I dun wish to live my life that you'll choose soccer game or computer games over an anniversary dinner. if you dun think it's too much, den best of luck to the nxt girl.

Speechless, heartbroken, disappointed.

Cry..

MooD: Pathetic life...

2009-05-18T14:41:00.002+08:00

Today again in lousy mood... feeling down..

today is a special day. but special someone got date with Asiasoft.. OMG my life is pathetic.. how did i wind up here?? haix.. how do i move on.. how do i decide from here.....? haix... can God tell me how? can my friends tell me how? dun wanna be alone today.. but left with no choice...

Friends not free.. xj going home to maple.. makes the the bottom of the earth..

i think i'm depressing.. Depression. how is it like?? i dunno.. need help..

Pathetic life...

MOOD: Tired..

2009-05-16T12:04:00.003+08:00

went to watch movie at TM last night with Sean, Sylvie, mum and Uncle tommy. watched Angels and Demons. love the show. although i knew that Camerlengo was bad cos he had an evil face.. acting all noble and all.. just a part of his "evil" plan.. haha..

Haix.. he's one confused fella... i din quite get the ending tho.. what's the point of burning himself?? Lolx.. the irony of saying the prayer and asking for acceptance of GOD after all that he's done... the plotting and scheming, murdering the pope, planning the killing of the 4 selected pope-to-be candidate.. lucky last one saved by Tom hanks... so he was crowned Pope in the end anyway..

Hais.. look forward to Night At the Museum 2!! hehe.. cannot wait for it to open lehs...

Hmm.. Wee Ming jio me go join the Chinese Don't Forget The Lyrics.. OMG.. i duno if i'm really gonna go ahead with it.. but i guess ya.. why not.. go :play play" lo.. quoting wei ming.. =X OMG i still dun believe i got talked into this.. my song range very selective.. plus old songs ima not so sure... den the crowd.. the embarrassment.. the nervousness.. OMG!!! so help me god Zzz..

Haix.. work has been sian-ed.. relationed also sian-ed.. everything ard me is sian-ed.. i think ima going to enter depression sia. hahaha... Lols.. if depression is the ans.. oh might as well be.. otherwise ima clueless... haha.. anyway great match last night with Chelsea and Blackburn.. Liverpool match also gd.. but the man u match was so.. urgh!! haha damn irritating that Ronaldo.. Love Ryan Giggs.. haha.. Chelsea's Gerrad's cute too!! =X

Anyways.. thoughts for another time.. kinda got to work ler.. ZzzZzz..

Missing him.. doubt he knows.. dun think he'll ever get it... that's wads so sian-ed.. haix...
cnt imagine ima going to live the rest of my life liddat.. sucks big time.. but we dun have control of how our life's gonna be.. just have to suck it up and just march forward.. when the time comes to make a decision, i know i'll make the right one..

*thinks.....*

MOOD: Angry Day..

2009-05-14T17:02:00.002+08:00

Feeling so angry whole morning.. So angry with my creature manager aka Gugu(Aunt).. pissed off... eveything must point finger at other pple de.. so sianx.. I got screamed at, Eric got screamed at.. the best part is she say my transporter claim that the cargo is bare unit of glas.. which actually isn't lo.. she kick up a whole big fuss abt how can we take bare units and all to clear. how can pass to ah teo.. BUT!!! the BL reflects 2 wooden cases lo.. so angry.. after lunch i called HK Awards, co loader. she told me it is not bare unit. it is cased!!! WTF!!! and im thinking, she nvr get the black n white info, how can she anyhow scold pple...?? make me cry in the morning sia.. too stressed.... hais... bcz she my aunt, i respect her.. nvr shout or quarrel with her.. dammit... feel so indignified.....

Lynn is on urgent leave today.. in the morning alot of calls.. SIA cargo got damaged... out of 300 ctns, 20 ctns torn.. she also ake noise.. machiam my fault... haix.... SIAN AR~!!!!

Really lousy day at work..... hmm..... dun wanna be alone tonight.. feeling so lousy mood... wanted to meet that mr ang.. called him ard 3plus coming 4pm.. ask if he wanna meet. he say see how. call me back.. den abt 430 call him again.. guess what he doing?? Boss... then he ask me meet 6plus can? wait for him.. i already having damn damn lousy day at work.. wanna leave 530pm on the dot. den he still suggest ask me OT... haix.. i super dulan lo.. den i told him forgt it la.. later 520pm call again.. say meet him at 7pm.. vivo.... i did not bring my hp out.. and i duno wth i'm gonna do from now till then.. tell him i dun wanna stay at work.. den he lose temper say aiya dun meet la.. KNS. Fuck. Hate asiasoft...

He and his stupid game.. so Fucking impt! feel lagi shit.. lousy mood.. no one to cheer me up..
feel like crying... even blogging isnt enuff to vent out all my frustration....

i duno what he wants in life.. i'm not asking him to spend money when with me.. i'm not asking him for alot.. at least i feel... all i need is someone to be physically and mentally ard.. when i sit with him in the same room i dun feel his presence... i dun feel like i even exist.. transparent. all in his eyes is his game, boss, duku, and shop for equipment.. every week i'm at his place.. the main reason why i choose to go there after work so that he doesnt have to travel to tampines oh so often, save petrol. save time, takes abt 45mins to travel to tamp and back. scared he's tired.. scared troublesome.. stay at his place also means i get to spend quality time with him.. see him, feel him, at the same time i wish he's see me, feel me too... i duno if he sees me.. or just when he chooses to?

time to time he's so sweet and loving.. then later suddenly all gone.. i duno.. im confused...

boils down to that qns.. do i wanna live like that for the rest of my life?

I'm tired.. i wanna dissappear. Can?

Mood: Sobx..

2009-04-22T14:35:00.002+08:00

sighs.. so sad.. so frustrated... feel like crying.. but cannot.. at work.. really busy.. flushed with work.. yet all i can think of is work.. and HIM.. kns..

Haix... duno when will everything be stable...

Sad..

MOOD: Moodless...

2009-04-20T14:28:00.002+08:00

Been feeling crappy the past week...

quarrel with him... sianx... tt day went shan'sbdae party..
no permission.. now regret...

anyways.. during weekend with him is so much better... feels so much in love...

Sunday went to Botanic Gardens with Sharon.
She had her assignemnt to do.. KK send us there and he went sch.. me n Sharon walking under the super hot sun.. i think i can feel the heat in my hair.. butt sweating and shirt all soak in perspiration...OMG... we took photos... many photos... finally hid inside the toilet at the Visitor Centre there.. got FAN... heavvenly.. hahaha... then we saw got food court there.. so we went down and sat for COLD COLD Dessert!!! yumms... so we sat there.. aft tt we saw one funny couple.. the girl is plucking the guys moustache.. OMG so funny.. den aft a while later, we saw her using oil paper blotting his face.. hahhahhaaa.. we use Sharon's camera and be papparazzi (duno hw to spell.. heck..) haha.. she took some pics and OMG so funny....... read the CLEO mag oso... sit there enjoy aircon... haha...

Hmmm den we wanted to watch the Movie 17 Again.. so aft kk class he came pick us, go buy ticket at The Cathay. watching 7.05pm show.. went to BP to pick XJ.. den we immediately head to cinema... in the car i lie down on XJ's lap and slp./. the hot sun making me slpy liao plus wake up early that morning... feels so nice to be slpin on his lap.. so warm.. so cosy.. so in love... hehe...

the show so cute.. so lovey.. so enjoyable.. Zac Efron is SOOOOOO CUTE!!! OMG.. If he my bf i'd faint everytime i see him.. mm quite sure.. haha.. good figure, nice hair.. nice eyes... sighs...*flutters...* hehe...

then in the cinema, hugging him.. feels so comfortable.. aft the show we went Bukit timah to eat Teachew porridge.. with kk and Sharon.. the porridge not bad lehs.. den XJ order crayfsh for me.. yumms my fav.. 2 for $10.00.. OMG so ex!!! hehe.. actually i think he oso wanna eat bahx LOLX... after the makan KK send us back home.. we walk in from the ATM there... cos he went to put MONEY back inside the ATM.. deposit.. LOLx.. forgot the word...

Anyways, then we walkign back home, i suddenly comment. i find Sharon very Strong and i very peifu her.. not something big that she done or something great.. just that she manage to do somehting i cant do... that is reject being with a person she likes.. many times when r/s fails. you always tell yourself.. Men Sucks! no more le.. Single best.. later after few mths.. then i'm in another r/s ler.. haha.. like the last time... i totally give up liao.. so tiring to keep a r/s going.. nofreedom.. no life... so sianx.. then i'm back ina r/s.. that y i salute her...

what me n her wans, is so simple.. just someone whu cares and shows that they love you.. be there physically and mentally.. sensitive.. makes you feel loved...

i'm not saying Xj doesnt.. i'm saying he's holding back.. i duno why.. sometime he also got the "mood"to love me.. sometime no "mood".. that's when i will sian ji pua... really piss of liddat.. cos he ming ming care but dun wanna show or say.. den makes me wonder, am i feeling the right thing anot..

maybe i'm not feeling secure.. tt y lyk need assurance all the time.. and to him, i think.. no need what-so-ever assurance as long as the feeling is true jiu hao.. i oso duno.. haix.. Just enjoying this feeling now... feels he loves me.. haha.. or am i just comforting myself??

hmmmmm...................*think think*

MooD: Accident..

2009-03-27T14:55:00.003+08:00

Yeps pple.. accident last last sat.. haa..

should have blogged abt it sooner tho.. but just din have the heart n soul to blog.
hmm.. ok.. tt day was my grandma bday celebration. we had organised a chalet... XJ came.. but we drove daddy's car to the chalet. left the bike at home..

after cutting cake, KK came to meet us.. we met at doentown east.. went back my place to take the bike. so we were riding until abt tamp safra there.. then traffic light..

interruped by XJ.. requesting me to type softer.. which means slower... aiya will blog later using my lappie..

toodles....

MooD: Sick..

2009-02-18T21:08:00.002+08:00

Ima down with cough n flu.. sho sianx..

Today slpet the whole day away.. my meds like strong lo.. haa..
Dr Mok gave me 2 days MC. i sms Lynn in the morning and told her i got 2 days MC. She also sian diaox.. cos her leave tmr burn.. haix.. sometimes i cnt stand her leave.. EVERY Mon and Thurs lehs.. haix.. bo bian... stick it out for a while. hopefully her leave ends soon...............

LoLx.. Grats to Yanling finally taking the first step to move on.. Altho i still haven heard from her what she thinks of him.. but at least she taking the first step to get to know pple. *Huggies* and best of Luck.. =)

So many things happening ard me.. Oya KK tio 4d hahhaa... Last night we went to Tua Bei Gong @ Loyang.. there got this stone. Deardear say if we burn that incennse thing in front of the stone, can see numbers... so i think we squat there for lyk almost half hr, i saw a 8.... and den alot of 6s. but din buy 4d today lar.. so in the end its lyk open but nvr buy.. 8666.. OMG.. Staters summore lehs.. sad... den KK saw his numner 8520. he bought $2.. tio Consolation... Got luck lor...

Heard frm Lynn that she getting a divorce with Kai. She has a 2yr old daughter, and a 5mths old baby (agaration) Her husband Kai, fools ard outside.. with online chats and all.. she keep all these proof in the office. she even has the pictures of the girls.. Yanling also because of past relationship failure tt's y scared to accept a new one.. den i'll hink.. so many relationships ard me going haywire... makes me scared that i've already decided to embark on a whole new level to the word "Relationship". He bought me a 0.088Carat diamond ring.. hehe.. ima happy.. and i noe tt he's serious.. my HDB also on the way.... ima so many steps ahead of all my gfs...

So many things going thru my head... need to scrimo and save liao.. but seems cnt brng myself to do it.. LOLx.. aiming for an LV bag... OMG... LV lehs.. thousand over dollars lor.... sianed.. feel heart pain to buy sia... buy liao can frame up?? LOlx... use i scared spoil... hehe....

OMG coughing away.. but better liao lar.. not lyk last night my throat feel so pain... Sobx...
Just aside, sometimes i know he cares.. if he would use actions, like a hug, or a syayng on my arm.. or jus a touch to know he cares and will b ard... i'm so lazy tt i have to keep guessing... sighs...

maybe ima afraid i guess wrongly........

Mood: Confused..

2009-02-14T11:39:00.002+08:00

hmm.. Jus read Yanling aka Sharon's Blog...

So much feelings aft reading it.. i mean.. lyk suddenly gan shou alot of different mixed up feelings... i feel sad that i haven been beside her.. haa.. funny hor but ya.. when she got hurt in the r/s i shud have been there with the others of the gang to help her thru it all... but we also lyk half past six liddat.. feeling kinda... mixed up..

hais.. when i was down n out of love, i spent most of my time with my friends.. Qianz.. Yunz.. Yanz.. Cuihui.. really made me feel alot better.. like, better loved by my gfs den a man. cos guys are unpredictable.. you never know when they betray you or hurt you.. Problem with me is that i'm too satisfied. i need to learn to give... and TAKE.. i'm not complaining abt XJ.. He's great.. Loves me but doesnt say it.. den.. i guess it's jus me la.. i kinda need him to say it, but he doesnt? so.. ima learning to let go lo.. let go as in dun keep expecting..

No Expectations, No Disappointment.

I heard this from another friend. a Church friend in fact. he really teach me alot and ima grateful.. Thanks Vinnie.. =) many times words that comes from his mouth usally seems all so right and justified. That's y i like talking to him.. makes me feel smarter.LOLx..

Any ways.. Sharon got some kinda illness.. "snake disease" they say.. not quite sure what it is abt.. but will be doing alot of reading lo.. =)

MOOD: SIAN-ED

2009-02-10T11:36:00.001+08:00

Haix.. permit declare wrongly again.. SIANx~!!!

works a drag.. so sianx..

Haix..

MOOD: Wishes all to be the best this yr...

2009-02-06T13:57:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. Feeling like i'm missing out on my life.. duno why nowadays a lil moody.. nuttin to do.. nuttin to say.. jus feeling moody..

have you ever have the feeling the BIG question drops in on you someday.. and you're afraid you wun be able to give a definite ans? although you were quite sure of the ans sometime back... but then again you qn yourself... is that the ans you'll be satisfied with?

Sighs.. i duno..

MOOD: CNY~!

2009-01-30T10:58:00.003+08:00

Oh. its the CNY liao.. so fast..

today is "CHU" 5.. haha.. so fast time pasts..

let's recap a lil... had my reunion dinner with my father side family on the 24/01/09, which is not CNY eve yet.. haha... den on sunday had lunch at grandma house.. my mother side family... after lunch me n hubby went to marina sq to watch movie.. he catch a MOOMOO for me.. brown colour de wor... at night went back his house for reunion dinner with his grandma.. den he send me home lor...

at home, abt 10pm, whilst watching the cny channel 8 countdown program we where doing red packets and wrapping oranges.. aft tt.. did nails for mum n sis... tired liao.. aredy countdown over ler.. hubby went ecp with kk, kenny and wenfeng. they came to my place abt 2am. play mj.. suppose to hubby slp i play, but in the end i slp he play. hahahaaa...
they went back abt 530am in the morning.. early morning woke up go pray grandfather at kembangan there.. den went to ah ma hse.. hubby came late.. abt 1pm liao.. haa..

aft tt we went to his father side grandma hse.. was quite bored lo. considering the fact his cousins all sitting one corner, den he join papa play cards.. i sitting at sofa watching tv.. 7pm liddat we left. go china town meet sis, guang, kok and bro for our annual KBOX session. altho nvr stay long, nvr sing much also. at least i came.... LOlx..

haix.. almost had a fight with Xj tho.. sian diaox.. first day CNY must quarrel........... sighs... anyways.. aft tt we went to marina sq.. wanted to watch movie.. but no timing.. den in the end went to catch MOOMOO again~!! haaa.. catch a black one this time.. we headed to kallang watch movie instead.. aft tt we went home liao...

"chu" 2 first woke up early morning send mama go waipo hse.. we went to mama hse aft tt. play mj with des and uncle eddie.. hehe..win $$$ again =) aft lunch we went back to waipo hse again..
they were playing cards.. i sit on sofa wanna slp liao... aft dinner we went back home, i slp until 10pm sia.. hahaha.. too tired liao...

"Chu"3 start work liao lor.. morning quite slack.. den suddenly got some urgent things to settle. den ltr, aftnoon went to have makan makan with airfreight office at ECP Tung Lok Seafood Restaurant.. shiok sia.. hehe.. hmm.. aft that went sing k.. abt 9plus went home liao.. my tt hubby aft wrk went to meet his pri sch friends.. duno die to where sms no reply de wor.. hmm anyways thurs aft wrk i went home.. watch tv.. hee.. hubby play mj with papa n mama..

phew.. few days nia.. so long post. hahhaa.. i aredy cut short liao wor.. anyways.. tonight dinner with the girls.. meeting 6.30pm at city hall.. hehe.. duno eating wad for dinner sia.. see lo..

okiess... update soon.. now back to work.. gotta rush costing by end of the month =x

MooD: Work Stress Work..

2008-12-23T13:41:00.002+08:00

oh so sianx.. work is a drag... cant wait for another day to come and go..

before you know it.. It's Xmas... Haixx..
den New Yr... den CNY...

Sighs...

MooD: Tired...

2008-12-22T23:44:00.002+08:00

Super tired today... stupid cntr got compound.. S$200 lor.. MINIMUM~! wth~ ><

Den i think i super today lo. did 12 permits within an hour. LOLs.. stupid AXIOO need the inv tmr morning. forgt to send email jus now when leaving the office.. dammit. tmr morning sure kena tt Liew phone call liao... then jasmine will call tmr and sa she miss me liao wanna ask for documents.. haix... JSK oso waiting for advise on ETA.. OMG.. so many things on my mind.... dun wan think liao.. shoo shoo.. all go away lyk the rain.. ALL GO AWAY~!!

Xmas is ard the corner.. then New Yr liao.. 2009... what's your resolution?? Mine.. hmm.. haven really tot abt it. LOLs. been busy with many stuff so kinda dun wanna think... when i start to think all come at once, ima going bonkers... haix....

okok.. now watching Bleach.. getting exciting.. blog tmr. =)

MooD: Happy...

2008-12-22T01:33:00.002+08:00

Today sleep till almost 1pm.. shiok sia~ hehe...
wake up.. go disturb hubby deardear.. LOLx.. make him cnt slp oso...
aHahahHaa..

hmm.. eat lunch.. mama cook beehoon..
den off to my weekly exercise ler... Dry Swimming....
hehe.. started to play lo.. i'm 'bei'. dear dear is 'nan'. liddat sit opposite better...
always say i 'ding' his tiles....haix...

so... aft playing one and a half round, we went to bishan Junction 8.. went to buy my office exchange gift for Xmas.. OMG x'mas is like coming~!! hahaha...(silly >,<) den went to the arcade.. and yesh.. my laogong catch another stuff toy for me~! hehe yea!! this time is a chipmunk. you know chip and dale?? yuppx.. nice to hug lor.. haha.. soon i can open shop sell soft toys ler.. hehe.. or mayb i can ahve my own machine to catch this thing~! LOLs.. think too much.. got money sure pay my house first.. or go on a long holiday with hubby.. haha..

anywayxx jus gt back from msia.. went in with deardear, nicholas and another of nicholas friend.. eh, forgot his name =x they went pump petrol and wash bike... wash clean clean wor.. went in by the first link.. they change the road.. so stupid lor.. cup left cup right. haha.. alot of turns jiu dui ler.. whr got customs located right inside de.. you know? as in pass the country border into the country ler.. den go customs chop passport.. no link... haha.. msian.. duno wad to say..

am super tired... so going to bed ler.. swt drmxx.. =)

MooD: Fun..

2008-12-21T04:34:00.002+08:00

woke up this morning at 7am. headed home.. print CPF statements den headed to HDB.. finished unexpectatedly early.. by 11am (i think) we're done liao...

Hubby wanted to bring me go eat 'You Tiao' in Geylang. but unfortunately lyk dun have lor... in the end went to eat Beach Rd Prawn Mee.. near my grandma house there.. erms... whr chai chee bah chor mee is.. and then super shiok cos too long nvr eat liao.. stupid shop auntie bluff me say shell station got ATM. walk all the way there in the end dun have.. cheat my feeling. LOLx...

erms.. den headed to ubi ave 3 there. cos deardear change new bike tt time, he got this $500 dainese (its a brand) voucher. the shop basically sells stuff for bike racing and touring. those jackets got elbow pad and stuff de.. super hard core type of racing suit.. all super ex too...~ >.<
in the end we got 2 t-shirt for himself, 1 for meow meow bdae present, 1 polo t for me.. and 3 keychain.. haha the key chain jiu aredy $30.. -.- right?? LOLx. bo bian italy de brand...

so, we went home ler.. suppose plan to go massage at clementi, but he say go home out stuff frst... reach home lazy to go out liao... both slp from 1pm liddat till 6plus den get up. hahaha...
pigs right.. =)

(im so slpy nw....)

den mama came home bathe and change, whole family went 3aunt(aka san yi)house for x'mas gathering. so went there they all commented i lost weight **blush blush** hehe... jovan,his youngest cousin, sooooo cute~!!!! hehe.. i wish my son nxt tym lyk him.. haaa.. so adorable.. cnt get enuff lo.. lyk can eat one.. hehehe...abt 11 liddat headed toward east to attend yanz bdae..

went home to put stuff den reach pasir ris park abt almost 1am they still waiting for me lor.. aw sho swt~ haha.. so tok tok lo... enjoy sea breeze... then theyh make fun of yanz.. oya ltr KK oso join us.. he sho shy and yanz super anti lo.. liddat i oso feel paisehs. hehe...

all going home.. jio cuihui and her plus 1 go have supper.. hehe. first time meet her plus 1, ok la.. not bad a guy.. sociable and nice guy. young too. haha.. cuihui, can de la.. *winkx* hahahahaaa... with KK, Kenny and Kenny gf, 7 of us all go simpang bedok makan prata.. super shiok.. nw hopme ler.. die die wanna slpliao..

you see my post all cut shrt de lo... tired.. wana zZzZz.. BB=)

Xmas Mood~!!

2008-12-19T23:48:00.002+08:00

haven been blogging for a really long time... haha.. been reminded by Cuihui and Yanz to "revive" it.. hehe...

hmmm lets see.. met up with Yanz, Qian, Fiona aft work this evening.. (wanted to write Yunz. LOLx) i'm so sianx..... time to change my blog skin liao.. when i got the time tt is.. when i'm not busy doing HDB stuff... Work.... Events.... Even jus catching up with my sec sch buds.. hehe.. BFFs~!!! Hope we'll always be there for one another... Any one reading this :"DON'T BE SHY~!! YOU KNOW MY NUMBER~!! HAPPY OR SAD, CALL ME!!!!" =) LurvesLurves.....

We went to this Yummy Korean restaurant.. not bad the food... but DUN TRY E KOREAN BARLEY~!! taste lyk paper burnt in water.. Gross to e max~~ ewh~ end up me n yanx take ice water...FOC LOLx.. Budget lar.. Den went to see Nail Polish.. S$20.90 per bottle. OPI lehs.. shud b cheap hor? i oso duno lehs... anways.. cabbed home.. too tired to think.. walked with qian they all inside the MRT gantry.. Lolx. walked out again. hahaa.. toking to cuihui on the phone la... CuiHui's fault~ ^.^

We were talking over diner.. discussing who will get married first. me or fiona.. concluded would be me. haha cos need to produce marriage cert to HDB upon request wor.. hehe.. some what scared yet excited... but too early to b excited hor.. hehe silly me..

hmm..OYA! i've applied my HDB flat ler... its been approved and i manage to get a unit. My future address will be Blk 633C Senja Rd #29-143 (it in Bukit Panjang for those who doesn't know... -.-")

Love my current status.. Don't wish anything to change tt... jus now jus had a huge arguement with XJ. Sianx... as usual.. cry lor. LOLs.. but aft that feeling better liao.. (big drama and i'm sure you dun wanna noe...)

Officially stating that i will nvr regret my decision to be with XJ. be as in BE.. you noe...? Forever... ya.. LOLs. (fingers crossed..>.<)

Okiess.. tmr wake up early go HDB liao... Yawns... Nitex..
Happy Birthday Yanling.... or Sharon... haaa.. =)

MOOD: Nice SOngs..

2008-10-14T13:23:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. like have been more than a month since i last updated..

lets... see... many things happen.. amelia cames back sg for like almost a week.. cos her godma passed away.. she n GR lotsa problems..(as usual) and her love life is still complicated..(as usual).. HAHA.. Qian's SQ went australia.. duno when coming back, but he calls her everynight~!!(well... almost!)

hmmm.. me.. doing ok.. not great but ok... i've recently got a 120GB Ipod..
No idea what to do with it. put in most songs still use up only 1.3GB.. haha..
hmm den heard some really old songs that is really nice.. One particular song reli.. hit me hard~!!

below: Enjoy...

HOW DID I FALL IN LOVE
-BACKSTREET BOYS

Remember when, when we needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone

Those days are gone, now I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble

I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't wanna be,
Alone tonight

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

Bridge:
Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah

I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life

chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew

How did I fall, in love, with you?

MOOD: Next Phase in LIFE

2008-09-06T10:17:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. XJ n me applied for the new BTO flats, SENJA GREEN.
Its located in Bukit Panjang, good availability, nice models.. small tho..
but, it's OUR house lehs.. cnt wait for the results.. haha.. kinda excited..

I deem fit my life to be spent with this wugui liao..
I want to love him for the rest of my life. I will need all the patience there is in this world.
all the time in this world. and preferably all the MONEY in this world. LOLx.

Hehe.. so happy finally submitted the applications..

Wait for HDB to approve nia. call us go choose unit...

TO HDB: PLS PLS PLS GIVE US THE FLAT...? I WILL WORK HARDER THAN EVER TO PAY EVERY CENT K? LOLx. I WILL SPEND LESS SAVE MORE FOR MY DREAM HSE N LIFE>

=)

MOOD: ALL SMILES AND GIGGLES...

2008-08-22T21:24:00.000+08:00

MY DAR DAR BOUGHT ME A RING!! ima so excited... Hehe... wearing on my finger feels so good... Haha... seriously. if he had asked me to marry him I wud agree lo dunnit think~Haha...

MOOD: IN L-O-V-E

2008-08-09T02:23:00.000+08:00

have u ever told a person you love him? as in verbally? and does your heart beat increase?

mine jus did... I've said e 3 words to all my ex but nv once I feel my heart beat beating so fast... tat y I so wanted to blog abt it... miss my wugui's hugs but dun dare to hug him...cos he snoring away liao... I kissed him on his forehead and said "gd night dar dar" den I felt my heart beating faster ."i love you"came out of mouth.... so shy liao... Haha..

MOOD: Reached Home...

2008-07-26T14:33:00.002+08:00

finally got home.. jus bathe...

so tired... feel lyk going to slp liao... but hair nt dry. so tot i blog a lil...

jus now walk back from Bukit Panjang Plaza(BPP).. like damn far la..
some more weather is like wanna rain wanna shine... hais.. den walk lo.
listen to my hp mp3 den walk... walk.. walk... after abt 7 songs or so.. i reach the LRT station Bangkit liao... sweating liao lor.. feel lyk gonna fall sick soon.. sianx...

anyway today the qns still in my head.. colin says,
u be with someone u love, den will feel xin fu in time to come, responsibility wil like automatically fall in place.

but i feel, liddat, den isnt it when u fall in love with sum1, with no responsibility to the r/s, you will lyk.. cos no responsibilityma.. den.. lyk dunnit to b responsible.. hai. duno wad i toking liao..

this morning reach office abt 820am.. less traffic.. or mayb cos im tired tt y seems lyk time v fast...went as usual to the malay stall to buy my usual curry ouffs.. but today nvr make.. sobs.. so i went on hungry stomach wrk.. cnt concentrate.. blogged a lil... den now home liao.. still no makan.. stomach starting to make funny noises.. but heck la. i kinda lyk no appetite too...

you know some pple actually has something in mind tt they feel lyk tasting? nowadays i jus dun have tt feeling lia.. duno wads wrg with me.. hais....

MOOD: Tired...

2008-07-26T11:42:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired...... can barely concentrate on wad shit im doing...

feel lyk a fever coming my way..
stupid weather. stupid rain..

duno wads wrg with me. im jus emitting this negative aura these few days...
hais.. to stress at wrk.. den keep zhuan niu jiao jian..
always so pessimistic n negative. think of worse case senario..
make things so jialat for myself.

sometimes is i learn to let go of somethings, probably my life wud b better...

thinking of gg back to wrk for manicure..

but dun wish to eat into the time i get to spend with him.. but then agn, it's not lyke he's excited abt spending time with me.. aiya! see! negative aura~!!!

hai... i duno.. now im even doubting hw he feels...
is it "love"? or is it responsibility?

can 2 pple be reli "xin fu" if their together for responsibility?
responsibility can be applied onto anyone anything..

so who's to guarantee anything??

hai.. tired... mind is lyk hu si luan xiang liao...
hai.. eyes feel so heavy....

MOOD:SAD

2008-07-26T03:07:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling so sad...

I also dunno exactly y I'm feeling sad. is it bcs I always do stupid things to make him angry? or is it bcs of e girl over e phone? or is it bcs he doesn't care tat I gotta get up early tmr for work? it's 2plus am and he still suggests to go bowling.am I tat non existent??

I'm so sad and hurt. maybe it's his way of getting back at me...

I want my own room so tat I can cry out loud...

it's 3am plus in e morning. I have to stop crying and get some slp. I feel my eyes burning liao... but jus can't slp... can't help but feel very sad...

MOOD:

2008-07-21T13:22:00.002+08:00

Got this interesting article from Jing's Blog..

Easy is to get a place in someone's address book
Difficult is to get a place in someone's heart

Easy is to judge the mistakes of others
Difficult is to recognize our own mistakes

Easy is to talk without thinking
Difficult is to refrain the tongue

Easy is to hurt someone who loves us
Difficult is to heal the wound

Easy is to forgive others
Difficult is to ask for forgiveness

Easy is to set rules
Difficult is to follow them

Easy is to dream every night
Difficult is to fight for a dream

Easy is to show victory
Difficult is to assume defeat with dignity

Easy is to admire a full moon
Difficult to see the other side

Easy is to stumble with a stone
Difficult is to get up

Easy is to enjoy life every day
Difficult to give its real value

Easy is to pray every night
Difficult is to find God in small things

Easy is to promise something to someone
Difficult is to fulfill that promise

Easy is to say we love
Difficult is to show it every day

Easy is to criticize others
Difficult is to improve oneself

Easy is to make mistakes
Difficult is to learn from them

Easy is to weep for a lost love
Difficult is to take care of it so not to lose it

Easy is to think about improving
Difficult is to stop thinking it and put it into action

Easy is to think bad of others
Difficult is to give them the benefit of the doubt

Easy is to receive
Difficult is to give

Easy to read this
Difficult to follow

Easy is keep the friendship with words
Difficult is to keep it with meanings

**Think abt it....

MOOD: EMO EMO..~

2008-07-07T16:48:00.002+08:00

Sighs.. i had a dream last night.

saw my big big wugui walk away from me.. smiling (as usual)..
lyk no matter how i chase also cnt reach the stupi wugui..
it's lyk jus bouncing away from me... hai.. i so wanna cry lo..
cos i needed wugui last night.. the small wugui oso not helping... so emo.. so down..
den the stupid big big wugui bouncing away from me... so angry and pek chek...

sighs...sometimes i just wish all problems dun exist.. if only we could do things our own way..
travel thru time.. and travel past time.. future present, is all fake..

Sianx... Emo shit..whole day keep thinking abt what tt mini toons sales girl say..
she bought the wugui liao.. den summore gek me by telling me vry nice to hug...
nb... LEE MAN her name.. emo lo.. she still must make me feel worse..

My BIG BIG WUGUI~~~!!!

mood:cant sleep...

2008-07-07T00:55:00.000+08:00

missing him... can't slp la... why always make things bad... now he's not replying my sms.. sobx... hai... nights dear.. muackx.. love you so... hai

guess only here den I know how to expreSs my feelings...sobx... even wugui hp not making things better... guess he'll be ignoring me for quite some time le... wish your interview success.. love ya... muackx...

MOOD:suckx

2008-07-07T00:36:00.000+08:00

no matter wad I do I'll always be wrong... e problem is there and always will be... no matter how hard I try.. it kills me tat we always quarrel over small things like this... makes me so afraid to sleep... scared tat nxt morning, he's no longer mine... even if one day tat hp to happen..., it's gonna be all MY FAULT ... so no amount of tears will get him back...no matter wad I do,.. I'm always wrong.... wrong wrong wrong... just like a big idiot... he's probably better without me, slowing him down... yet, I so dun wanna let go ....why..?

MOOD: Lousy...

2008-07-06T00:41:00.000+08:00

uncle tommy's things are better le... hai..

just came back from prawning..made my wugui laogong angry.. hai.. accidentally dropped e whole net of his catch into e water... really not purposely de la...hai... now dun dare talk to him..scared get scolded... sobx.. really my fault la.. now talk to me also one kind...nvm, tmr I going home le..sigh he mon starting school le.. so wun be meeting me anyway... hai...emo sorry dear.. hai... dun I always screw up?

so frustrating... stomach pain agn... kns!

MOOD: It's Complicated..

2008-07-01T13:54:00.002+08:00

Hai... So bad month for everyone around me..
Ah Gu (Ah Kheng) passed away... Family problems from father side...
Stupid work got alot of hiccups.. hai... so sianx... Luckily wugui laogong n me ok... not much problems...

Busy now.. Blog ltr..

MOOD: Tired...

2008-06-27T15:09:00.002+08:00

Woah~ past few days haven been blogging...
Just read Colin's blog.. kinda agree to wad he says.. haaa.. i mean,
why do pple hide their feelings? hai... he oso poor thing.. gf left him for another guy..
after 5 yrs of r/s..... no wonder he so emo shit nowadays...

today work got quite alot.. but im lyk slack lehs duno why..
excited tt i'm meeting wugui ltr?or jus tired...?i have been looking at the same file for almost 3hrs. LOLx.. just slacking..

i've bought my new HP liao... it's a HTC touch phone.. haaa.. psycho my uncle buy in the end i myself go n buy.. haaa.. sign new line, $198. didn't have to pay registration fee, my monthly is only $19.20, and first 6 mths free subscription.. haaa.. so cool right.. my new number my uncle choose de.. 0682.. means easy to get rich,.. i was lyk sure anot... i feel so hard lehs.. haaaa... den he laugh oso.. anyway i need to figure out how to use the phone.. duno how to operate it yet.

haaa.. im so tired n so slack.. i wanna go shopping~! buy under garments.. for myself and my wugui laogong..

wah.. been missing him... LOL.. duno y oso.. jus feel lyk being in his arms.. so much fats so comfy.. haaaaaaa... =x

Hai.. duno wad he thinks at times.. haha.. duno why he lyks to irritate me. and the best part is it's lyk so wu suo wei to him. here, i lose to him. .. hai..

MOOD: 24th June 08

2008-06-25T14:50:00.002+08:00

Mum's 50th bdae.. went MissU Cafe for dinner..
the food was fantastic.. wah damn long never eat liao..
shiok lo..

hmm.. den went st james Movida.. didn't drink much.. just tried champagne..
it stinks...had red wine too and alot of sprite... haha.. me n my sister went to dragonfly most of the time.. we were there listning to chinese pop songs and the girl singer was really good... she sand "ting hai" by zhang hui mei.. sounded really nice... but too bad she's china.. hahaha... seriously, jus sitting at the bar feels reli good..able to listen to nice music and sing along.. my sister was dying to go K.. hhaa.. she suggested to go pub but my dad wanted to go club.. so we oso bo bian... sighs... missing my baobei one whole night.. i wonder the feeling's vice-versa..

doots...

MOOD: Funny customer..

2008-06-24T15:09:00.002+08:00

This MJ LIM oso one funny guy.. BL not surrendered how you want me too help...
sighs.. everytime only know how to chu pattern gimme kio sai...

sooner or later sure die de lo...

haha.. JEsmine still owes me inv and packing list.. tmr zhong stroe rent den ho seh liaoxx...
wan hoong, Liping oso owe me Original Bl.. How to clear cargo... OMG..
stress~

MOOD: Paper Cuts..

2008-06-24T11:58:00.003+08:00

Stupid paper from the fax machine is sooo sharp so many cuts since morning.. swayed.. haha.. such a small cut ah, but freaking pain lo... kns..

lunch time is nearing... looking forward to a hearty meal which and soothe my busy morning...

sighs.. no news from my wugui..

misses...

MOOD: Busy Morning..

2008-06-24T10:25:00.002+08:00

Came in early morning, the phone never STOP RINGING..
the best part is, no one ever picks up~!! OMG.. so irritating..
den phone call for me is lyk non stop..

Gimme a BREAK~ *PHew..*

Ok no time to blog liao.. toodles.. BRB~

MOOD: Drama will always remain Drama..

2008-06-23T21:12:00.004+08:00

Jus had my dinner.. wah so full.. the soup taste nice.. but sad cnt eat the vege..
stupid braces lar... oh well..

am watching the 9 o'clock channel8 drama... "La Femme", all the sweet things that happen in dramas, will only happen in drama... it seldom happens in real life situations...

i mean, think abt it, when the girl asks if the guy has forgiven her, do u think the guy wud kiss n make up? i doubt so.. they probably land some sarcastic remark right smack across your face and leave u stabbing youself in the heart wondering, "why i had to open my mouth.."

see tt's real life and tt's men for your info! nuttin actually happens lyk in the drama.. even suicidal scenes.. how many pple actually are willingly to die for love?? yea, they'd probably try, but whu actually succeeds?? so i salute those whu actually died for love...and no other reason in particular...

sighs... LOVE.. sets me thinking.. wad is love?? it cnt be eaten, it cnt be a tool, it cnt kill someone, yet it cnt keep someone alive...

Mystical LOVE..... even till the day i die, i doubt i'll ever understand love.. sometimes i think i do understand it, but then agn.. tts all bullshit... wad, love is kind, love is patient, love is sacrifice... ah~bullshit! haha.. im better off thinking love's jus one big mystery.. after all, Ignorance is Bliss ya? HEHE..

okies.. off to indulge myself in the unrealistic life of drama... Toodles.. =)

MOOD: Feeling better...

2008-06-23T11:13:00.002+08:00

Jus had lunch... feeling better aft a short talk with my colleagues..
small talk, big laughs.. haha..

My colleague shared an experience with us jus now over lunch..
He said tt night he was working late alone in the office..
abt 9.15pm, he called for the cab.. but no cabs were available..
so he gave his details to the cab company and got them to contact him once
a cab was available.. but he wait until he cnt wait liao. decided to walk out to main street
to hail a cab instead. then when he went downstairs, he saw a cab on call coming in.
so he decided to try his luck. he hailed the cab. the cab driver ask him, "Tommy? going tampines?" he replied "ya." so he asked the uncle, "tot the cab company girl so no cab available?"
cab uncle replied "no la i call ur hp, but lyk no reception, so i called the office, your girl say you left aredy..."

SO SCARY RIGHT?? cos, he was alone in the office earlier jus now...
OMG.. i dun dare work late alone liao...

MOOD: Pissed..

2008-06-23T10:44:00.002+08:00

Argh~!! how can he just make it like, it's my job to do this for him..
ROAR~!! AHHHH!!! Gosh~!!

So damn irritating la.. cant do anything abt it..
I'm also human lo, i'm not a walking encyclopedia la...
i also need help, there are also thigns that i dunno..
dun take for granted that i have to do all this for you ok??

so damn pek chek la. all my work stuck there,
still piling as i blog.. fuck.. update ltr liao...
jus needed to find a corner to bitch abt my life...

stupid life..

MOOD: not reli gd..

2008-06-22T19:00:00.001+08:00

Suppose to meet my family for dinner..
My mum's bdae celebration dinner.. but he doesnt want to go..
so i'm in a dilemma now.. duno if i shud just go..
dun lyk to leave things dngling out of nowhere..

Sometimes, thigns when left alone, will just go away..
but how come i dun lyk to leave it alone so it will just go away?
great.. now got some error with the time and date format.. gotta edit my html agn.. sianx.. spend like an hr editting it jus now.. DOTX...

Yea.. he's back in lala land agn.. sighs.. i think im jus gonna go..
go bathe and take a train back east to meet them for dinner...

*SIGHS* duno y heart feels so heavy.. so sian..
Oh well.. wad to do.. whu ask me to love him.. LoLx..
*hai*

MOOD: Hungry..

2008-06-22T17:29:00.001+08:00

Sobx.. I'm hungry... so hungry..
sobx sobx sobx...

MOOD: Woah, Long Time..

2008-06-22T17:29:00.000+08:00

Wow.. really long since i last blogged..
Don't know why it jus takes me so hard to commit to blogging..
haha.. the stinge lasts only for awhile..
then something motivates me to blog again..
LOLx.. I'm weird..

~UPdates! Out of the oven HOT~!!
I'm now attached to my wugui laogong..XinJie..
How we met..
We met on the 3rd day of CNY 2008,
Just outside SandMan (My father's pub..)
He came with John.. John and i arranged to meet weeks ago i think..
Wugui Laogong jus tagged along. I was there with my family and my best friend Qian, we had a drink or 2.. didnt really drink much, cos the 2 men were riding that night.. After which we headed off to Bedok 85 for supper.. Then Qian had to go back ler.. left me, john and wugui Laogong.. we went to changi beach for a ride.. after which they send me back..

Well, monday came and off i was back to work..I'm wrking as a freight forwarder in this company known as Speedmark. My office located at Pasir Panjang Distripark. Aft wrk i headed over to Auntie Jessie's house to bai nian. Suddenly received a msg from wugui laogong. he got my number from john.. he ask me if i wanna play mahjong at his friend's hse in tamp, near my place ma. but i cnt go from there wor. so inconvenient.. anyways.. the msgs came to n fro the whole night.. i think a few nights aft, he asked me out! haha.. we never spoke on the phone.. jus msgs to n fro.. could make me feel so secure being ard him.. reminds me of a feeling i use to have tho.. but been long since i last felt so secure. weird too.. cos i dunno him vry well, yet i noe him so much... you know? ok im sounding stupid now.. hehe.. aft 4 dates out tgthr, he asked me one day, if he were to ask me to be his gf, how many % would i say yes. i dunno to laugh at him or to reli just say yes in his face. haha.. took awhile b4 i finallized my ans and we were tgthr ler.. 18th Feb 2008 is the lucky day..

So that's how we met.. haha.. long story actually, cut short here and there, a few words settled it.. But until now, we're 4mths and going strong... Feels lyk we've been tgthr for yrs but nevertheless, i reli do..*thinks* erms.. *psst* Tell you a secret... I've never said that 3 words to him b4.. haha but here, i can loudly exclaim, "I LOVE YOU!!!" LOLx.. but i reli do.. from the bottom of my hrt, i tell you, "WUGUI LAOGONG, I LOVE YOU~!!!"

You noe, it helps to remind yourself how you and your special someone met when you have downs in the r/s.. be it a small quarrel or a big one. or maybe jus when you're feeling he's such an asshole and being a pig at times, you jus have to think things thru, your anger amazingly goes away.. you jus wanna hug him and jus drop the whole arguement.. of cos tt's if he doesnt harp on the arguement la..hehe.. seriously.. it makes me feel better aredy.. don't let small disagreements get you down and lose that special r/s. cos once broken, considered sold..

Many times i lost faith in r/s.. i mean,see etc etc.. but somehow, i have a good gut feeling abt this r/s.. well, but future's up to HIM right.. cos HE has everything planned for me..

MOOD: Smiles..

2007-08-26T18:07:00.000+08:00

Today, walked past some sort of a kindergarden then outside pasted some pictures done by the kids.

"Drawing Expressions"

Cute right... *hehe* Then also upload some pictures for the previous posts...

881 Soundtrack..

Mango that HE bought..

MOOD: SiNgLEhOOd..

2007-08-26T00:42:00.000+08:00

#1 What does the word 'dating' means to you?
it can mean anything, depending on the perspective you're looking at..
Usually a guy asks a girl out on a 'date'. Assumingly he lyks her.
(PS: it can happen vice-versa) or sometimes, it can be jus a casual company,
sometimes nothing at all and sometimes, just for fun.

to me ..
i think HE is weird. if SHE isnt interested, do you think HE have a chance to ask HER out for a date? even if it's just for fun? LOLx.. MEN... *thinking* somehow reminds me of JJ. haha. Today he mentioned about women using that tone n expression when saying that word, "MEN!"

btw, thank HIM for chasing the uncle to buy that thai mango thing for me. it was really sweet.. also cooking bee hoon for me. although it is salty, its the tots that counts right?? *HuGGieS*

MOOD: SLPY..

2007-08-25T04:34:00.000+08:00

it's 4.35am in the morning.. im so dead..

tmr im going for a movie..
waking up at 11am..
now just finish editting the blogskin only..
emo..

haha..anyway im sure not everyone is so crazy lyk me..
hor? oya, my mum bought the 881 soundtrack cd..
had it transferred into her phone!
then, my dad taunt her by saying, he has aredy done so.. -.-
i have weird family..

Oh well.. time to go bed liao.. nights..
tmr den upload the pictures for the 881 soundtrack..

heh.. huggies..

MOOD: my blog..

2007-08-24T23:20:00.000+08:00

I've done blogging before, but always cos of some unhappy stuff, i get new ones.. haha.. anyways. i promise to stick to this one okie?? hehe.. i shall have this blog be a depiction of my life.. me and just me...

my first post... hmm.. *thinking* AH~!

*What does blogging mean to me?
#1: I think blogging is a venue i can get all my feelings out..
#2: I think blogs as a company..
#3: I think blogs allow me to feel free about being myself..

*What do i think about myself?
#1: FAT!
#2: Emotional...
#3: more to come..

*What do i wish to achieve?
#1: My own all-in-1 salon.
#2: A Jack Russell name CHUBBY.

*x-treme*.[LING].

MOOD: Found out

Mood: Myself.

Im BooooooooReD!!

MooD: Grey Area..

MooD: Updates..

MooD: Fun..

MooD: Sunshine after Rain..

MooD: Tears.... that i dun like...

MooD: Slpy..

MooD: Seven..

MooD: In Office..

MooD: Confused...

MooD: Total sadness...

Mood: New Beginning....?

Mood: Long time didn't blog..

MOOD: Short Weekend...

Mood: Office on a saturday...

Mood: Bored...

Mood: Confused..

Mood: enjoyed the weekends...

MOOD: Meeting up with marianne..

MOOD: ANGRY!!!!

MOOD: Double Fish burger!!

MOOD:aft BIG BIG quarrel...

Mood: Can't wait...

MOOD: STRESSED~

Mood: Gym.. True Fitness..

Mood: Raining..

Emotional..

Mood: Harry Potter & the Half Blood Prince..

Mood: So Angry

Mood: Relationships...

Mood: Marianne's Getting Married...

Mood: Slow day at work..

Mood: so full...

Mood: Bored..

MOOD: New York New York~

Mood: Number 1 most CRAZY thing done on impulse

MOOD: Happy Bdae Mummy!!!!

MooD: My Weekend...

MOOD: Settling Down..

MooD: Loving him.. Feeling Small..

MooD: All Smiless.. Happy Day~~

MooD: Happy.. yet not so great..

MooD: Barcelona VS Manchester United

Mood: Happy tired.. haha..

Mood: Uploading photos in FB

MooD: Thinking of you..

MooD: New Look..

Mood: So full.. So tired.. So bored..

MOOD: Tired..

MOOD: Give Up..

MOOD: Smiles....

MOOD: Tired..

MOOD: Sianed..

MooD: Pathetic life...

MOOD: Tired..

MOOD: Angry Day..

Mood: Sobx..

MOOD: Moodless...

MooD: Accident..

MooD: Sick..

Mood: Confused..

MOOD: SIAN-ED

MOOD: Wishes all to be the best this yr...

MOOD: CNY~!

MooD: Work Stress Work..

MooD: Tired...

MooD: Happy...

MooD: Fun..

Xmas Mood~!!

MOOD: Nice SOngs..

MOOD: Next Phase in LIFE

MOOD: ALL SMILES AND GIGGLES...

MOOD: IN L-O-V-E

MOOD: Reached Home...

MOOD: Tired...

MOOD:SAD

MOOD:

x-treme.[LING].